The Gamma's Heart
The Gamma’s Heart – Chapter 64

A couple days have passed now and Clara could feel Clary breaking through little by little everyday. It was only a matter of time before she got through.

And true to his word Samuel and the triplets came through with the protection spell on the pack.

Sitting in the dinning room nibbling on some food, Clara looks up when she heard someone enter.

“Hey kiddo.” Samuel sits down beside her, he glances at her place which she has barely touched “baby making it hard to eat?”

Nodding her head she pushed it away from her. “I swear I wasn’t sick this early with Baliey.” she huffed.

“Can I ask you something?” he asked her turning his body to face hers on the bench.

Facing him also she looked at him trying to see if something was wrong “what?”

“Why don’t you want us to put a protection spell on you too? It will help keep you alive.” he told her taking one of her hands.

Sighing she looked down at their hands. “Because if you do and she does win, you won’t beable to stop her with that protecting her.” she should have explained it better the night Clary tried getting out.

“I can’t risk you not being able to stop her.”

“You know if your dad was here he could convince you to do it.” Samuel mumbled.

Clara covered their hands with her other one “he is here, and no he wouldn’t, I’m quite stubborn”

Looking up he seen she was talking about both him and Victor. He still wasn’t used to her referring to him as ‘dad’ but he loved it regardless. “Abigail, would be proud of how far you have come…”

“Or ashamed” Clara looked away from him “my last memory with mom wasn’t exactly a happy one, so me being where I am now….perhaps it’s karma for what I said to her.”

His face took on one of confusion, she never talked about her parents since they passed. He knew her and her mother were fighting alot but he and Victor stayed out of it.

She kept things to herself, he wasn’t even sure if Chase knew they were fighting.

“What happened?” he asked her softly.

Removing her hand from his she rubbed her aching chest while looking away. “Mom didn’t want you around Bailey. Said that you would corrupt her the way you were trying to corrupt me.”

A tear fell from her eye and she quickly wiped it away “We were in the park when she told me this, and she happen to see Hank across the field, I didn’t. Then she went to bring that up saying that you would use my rape as a way to get me to use black magic…as a woman who has been raped herself how can she say something like that?”

Samuel stared at her his mouth in the shape of an ‘o’ was Abigail just being nice to him for Clara’s sake and because her husband liked him?

“I told her that I wasn’t her, our situation was different and that I wouldn’t be persuaded so easily into using black magic and that Hank was tricked into doing what he did.”

“She hit me for saying that…when Baliey started crying that’s when she realized what she did. i-I told her I wish she would die but it was out of anger, I didn’t mean it.”

She took a deep breath before continuing “I grabbed all my things and Baliey then left, I guess Hank and Stacey heard what she said and walked me home so I wouldn’t be alone. It was the only time I let him be near me without Noah or Wyatt around. He did keep a little distance while Stacey walked with me.

Samuel looked up to see Chase standing in the doorway with Jackson and Robin who was holding the baby, his eyes wide and misty.

“But when I seen my mother’s wolf in The Spirit Realm, and Vera ran to me….it was like nothing happened, and I need that now more than ever, I need my mom to tell me that everything is going to be okay!” Clara cried covering her face with her hands, she hasn’t had a chance to properly mourn her parents death because of everything that happened after the attack.

Robin wiped a stray tear from her face, she handed her gandaughter to Jackson and walked over to her daughter-in-law and hugged her from behind.

“I know that I’m not Abby, but if it helps sweet girl….everything is going to be alright. We are going to beat this, you and that baby are going to be just fine, do you hear me?” she lost both of her best friends and the only person she’s had to lean on is Dan. But he lost his mate so his lost seems more painful than hers.

Robin heard a sob come from her, she placed her hands on her arms that she had around her torso and leaned her head back against her chest.

“Thank you” Clara looked up and smiled faintly, when she looked down at her her brown eyes that matched Wyatt’s looked nto her own. “I’ll always be here when you need someone to talk to, Clara.”

“Why didn’t you tell me she said that?” Chase asked while avoiding looking at her.

When Robin let go Clara turned to see Chase, his features were hard and angry. Was he angry at me or at the whole situation period?

“”Because when I found out that she and dad died, I didn’t feel the need to bring it up, Chase.” she whispered softly.

He looked at her “I’m talking about before she died, I could have said something to her.”

“No Chase, you couldn’t have.. this happened a week before the rouges attacked us. I wasn’t going to tell you that. You love her, and after she died? I didn’t want to ruin what you and mom had.”

Chase watched a single tear fall and roll down her cheek, he then sighed loudly and ran hand through his hair roughly. She really needs to stop taking on every problem on her own.

“You have to stop doing that!”

“Doing what?” she asked him confused.

“Protecting everyone except yourself.” Chase half yelled at her, he wasn’t mad at her he just wanted her to understand that she could talk to people. “You have a family now, you can’t do this on your own like you used to anymore!”

“No one Chase, and I mean no one… has ever understood me my entire life. Yes I had friends growing up, but they didn’t meet me until AFTER Dr. Brennan committed me for setting that couch on fire. And that was because mom and dad decided not to tell me who I was for 17 uears.” Clara told him while getting to her feet.

“You would think if my daughter was being treated harshly for 2 weeks the way I was, I would have told them the reason” her eyes never left his now understanding blue ones. “I was 5 and alone, and all I wanted was my parents and all they wanted to do was keep me asleep.”

Chase couldn’t say anything, his life was peachy compared to hers. He never had to endure what she went through, that single experience left her terrified of going to the hospital again, she only now just started getting used to walking through the doors willingly.

He watched as she walked over and took her baby from Jackson, she smiled at him. “You know you still could have came to me…I’ve never judged you!”

“I tried that once” she seen the confused look he made as she switched arms she held Bailey in. “When I was 15, I tried telling you about, Quentin. I was drunk and wasn’t sure if he used protection or not…I never got to tell you who it was because all I managed to get out was the ‘unprotected’ part and you flipped out, didn’t let me explain anything, Chase. So no I couldn’t come to you …for anything.”

Now he felt bad, he remembers that day. That was the day he and Wyatt found Quentin in the free overlooking her bedroom window, not exactly his proudest moment. Now that he thinks about it, he should have put the 2 together, because back then they never found out why he was stalking her.

“So I started talking to Damien. And his gay behind started telling the other people in our little group, that’s why they knew and no one else. But I did keep alot of things to myself.” Feeling a headache coming on she looked down at Bailey who was rubbing her eyes.

“I love you, but we can finish this later…both of you.” Clara turned to Samuel, who nodded at her with a bright smile. “I’m gonna lay down with this little rascal.” she leaned up and kissed his cheek then walked out of the dining room.

“And people call me a jerk…” Jackson mumbled.

**********

Walking through the darkness a cold feeling settled within the pit of my stomach as I heard screaming and lightning flash in the sky.

I jumped at the loud thunderous crack above me, as I got closer I could see a huge circle of people with flames surrounding 3 people. My heart felt like it kept out of my chest when I recognized who the 2 men were and who they were crying over.

This was a vision, and it was of me.

I placed my ha ds on my stomach as I got closer, I could hear them now.

“You promised you would fight.” Noah said cupping my cheeks. They were pale, that much I could tell.

Please tell me I’m not seeing my death?

My eyes were open but they looked heavy, I was looking around for something frantically and the moment I turned and locked eyes with…myself? I froze.

Wyatt looked over at what I seemed to be looking at but he didn’t see me, not like she did. Like I did. “They need you, now fight it Clara!”

Now I was confused. If this is my death how am I supposed to fight it? “I know that they do, but I dont know how.”

“Not Noah and Wyatt” she pointed at me or my stomach to be exact. “Your boys need you to fight. They don’t share the same father like Baliey does, but they are equally as powerful as she is.”

The ha ds that rest on my stomach, fisted my shirt. I’m carrying twin boys? And one belongs to Wyatt and one belongs to Noah?

“Promise them you won’t give up! She’s coming…” her eyes closed and both my mates cried out in pain, I knew exactly how that felt. I wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy.

Sitting up in the bed breathing heavy, one of my hands cluched my chest as I felt something burning in my heart.

Moving my shirt up I seen that the color was now black and that the vines were inches away from my heart, I quickly asked Noah and Wyatt to come here.

I knew they were home I coukd hear them downstairs “bring my dad” I asked quietly.

A few minutes later I heard the door open and in walked all 3, Chase was with them seeing as he hadn’t left yet. Without saying a word, I lifted my shirt up and over my head.

Chase was the one who gasped as he seen it, I just looked away, looking down at the sleeping baby next to me.

“I can feel her clawing her way through.” I don’t think I could bring up the vision even if I wanted to. I’m still in shock over seeing myself die.

“I need Brandon and Keela to come get Bailey for me. I think it’s gonna happen tonight.” Looking back at them I seen tears in my brothers eyes and in Wyatt’s but not Noah’s. But I could feel how sad he was, no matter how hard he fought it, I still felt it.

“Promise me you will beat her..” Noah demanded from me.

“I promise I will try to fight this, Noah! No matter what.” And there was my first mistake. My visions can be altered, but by me telling him that I just placed a brick wall in my path.

Looking at Samuel he seen the look in my eyes and I knew that he could tell I was hiding something. It wasn’t big, but something that I had feared for weeks now, and seeing it happen has made me loose my hope of making it through this all over again.

I feared for my life and the lives of my unborn children.

The thing that had me thinking though, was Selene said that when she asks me to fight…should I? Or should I give in and let Amara have me?

Playing with her fingers she laid back down and snuggled up against her sleeping baby who decided then to grab a handful of her hair, but I didn’t care. I’d let her beat me to death in her sleep if I could stay here longer with her.