Thrown Away
Chapter 12

The next morning the club was getting home at 5am so when Finn woke up at 8 with Jai things were quiet. She didn't care though, she wasn't going in there today. She didn't understand why Jai did not cry around Tama. She liked the fact her little boy didn't like men. It meant that they stayed away from here.

Finn breastfeed and changed Jai but then he gripped her shirt and would not let go at all. Jai wouldn't let Finn put him down and when she tried to do so, so she could have a shower, he screamed like someone was hurting him. Myles had heard the scream and took off towards Finn's little flat thinking something was horribly wrong. He had gone to the snipers last night with almost everyone else to get some justice for his sister.

"Open the door now Finn" Myles yelled while banging on the door. This in turn caused Jai to scream louder, he hated loud noises. Finn also jumped and looked at the door to make sure no one was coming through it. When she heard her brother yell, her body began to shake. She didn't understand why he was yelling when he knew how much she hated it.

Finn slowly walked to the door trying to calm herself and Jai down but it wasn't working. As Finn opened the door, Myles saw how scared both his nephew and his sister was. "Fuck" he yelled at himself. He realised he had done this to them and was ashamed of himself. "I'm sorry Finn, I heard Jai screaming and was worried something was wrong" Myles said quietly. He knew the damage had been done when Finn refused to look at him and just nodded her head once.

Myles just stood in front of his sister who was still looking at the ground clutching her son who was still crying and clutching on to her. "Do you want me to take Jj while you shower?" Myles asked tentatively. Finn just shrugged her shoulders, she was to caught in her own head replaying the words that had been said to her repeatedly about being a nuisance and not wanted. "Finley don't do that. I'm so sorry I shouldn't of yelled" Myles stated but Finn knew he was just saying words to calm her down.

Tama had watched Myles take off and had seen what had gone down. He was annoyed at his friend for scaring Finn but he had no say in what went down in the club at all. Yes he was Myles' friend but that was about it. When Tama that Myles was at another club and was no longer a sniper, be took off to join his mate and replace out what the fuck went down. Now he knew, he wanted to protect Finn even from her own brother at this very moment.

When Myles stepped towards Finn to take Jai, she couldn't help but flinch and Jai screamed blue murder. Myles immediately jumped back cursing himself for his behaviour. Sally and Tex went running not knowing what the hell was going on. "What the hell ..." Tex stated but then saw Myles and the look on his face. "Ok every one needs to calm down. Myles get inside get some breakfast" Sally stated. She could see both of the siblings were upset and could only imagine what had gone down.

Myles went to object but one look at Tex and he knew he had to keep his mouth shut. Myles stormed into the clubhouse angry with himself for scaring his sister and nephew. Tama was still watching but followed after Myles. "What the fuck man?" Tama asked Myles when they were sitting at the table. "Save it Tama, I fucked up I know that" Myles grumbled. "Yeh well I'm your friend and it's my job to keep you in check. You more then fucked up mate" Tama replied. "She was fucken scared of you Myles" Tama continued.

Sally and Tex stayed with Finn and Jai. Sally attempted to take Jai from Finn so she could shower and come into the clubhouse for breakfast. Jai wouldn't let go of his mother though, he wouldn't even let her put him down. After 20 minutes of trying to coax the little boy away from his mother Sally finally just said "right you are covered just come in for breakfast before it's all gone, then we will get this cheeky little man off you to shower". "No arguments Finn" Tex stated when he saw her go to protest.

Finn was still in an old shirt of Myles' which came to mid thigh and a pair of sleep shorts. She did have a nursing bra on though, she always slept with one on because she didn't want to have to go into lock down in the club house without a bra on. Finn reluctantly nodded her head and walked behind her uncle into the club house.

Tama smiled seeing Finn coming into the clubhouse until he saw she hadn't changed. She looked great but for some reason he didn't like other men seeing her like this or the fact she was wearing some other man's shirt. Myles looked and saw Finn hadn't changed out of her pjs and frowned. "This little man is being fussy, won't let his mother put him down. Finn is going to eat and then get ready for the day" Tex stated causing Myles to nod. Finn however kept her focus on the ground, she didn't want to see Myles or anyone for that matter. She was still shaken up from the morning.

Finn sat away from her brother and Jai still had his little fists tightly wrapped in his mothers shirt. "I'll hold him Finn" Myles said but the minute he went to touch Jai, Jai began to scream. This caught the attention of everyone in the club and upset Myles. He had always been able to hold his nephew and even made the little boy laugh a full belly laugh but now Jai seemed to be scared of him. Tex and Sally both tried again but each time Jai screamed blue murder.

Tama kept quiet realising that at no time had any one of them had asked Jai or Finn if they could hold him. They all demanded and each time Jai screamed and Finn flinched. This upset Tama as Finn never use to be so timid. "Right Finn eat then one of us will take Jai while you shower" Tex grumbled. Jai had never reacted like that to any of Finn's family only ever other men.

Tama stood and approached Finn who was struggling with the food that was put in front of her. Trying to hold a baby and cut your food was not easy, then there was Jai trying to get the his mothers food by swinging his face around near the fork. "Hey little man, can I hold you while mummy has something to eat?" Tama asked the little boy. Jai cocked his head to the side and studied Tama for a minute before realising his mothers shirt. "Do you mind?" Tama asked Finn. He didn't want to take her baby if she wasn't ok with it.

Jai was leaning towards Tama which is what he usually did to Myles and Tex. Finn was unsure but she could feel her uncle and brother glaring at her expecting her to eat. Finn gave a small nod and Tama carefully took Jai from her placing him on his chest and not moving away from Finn. Tama could see how uneasy Finn looked with him holding her son. "I'm going to sit right here with him while you eat ok? If you want him back just take him. Finn he is your baby no one else's. Do what feels right. No one can tell you what to do" Tama whispered causing Finn to finally look Tama in the eyes. Tama just smiled at the girl in reassurance.