Undercover at the MC (book 2) - Navy and West
After Party

Navy POV

2 years ago

Shit Shit Shit Shit!

What am I doing here?

Why did I say yes to this?

I already struggle so much with my sexuality, and then I say yes to West's proposal. While... I don't even know if I can do this! I am absolutely not attracted to the lady West has chosen for us. Her name is Abbey and she is about our age, she is way too eager and moaning way too loud while she is kissing West.

West opens his eyes and sees that I am still standing at the door of the room we went to. He makes a come-here motion with his finger and I can't do anything but walk towards him, fixated on his eyes. Abbey slams her mouth on mine and I feel the envy running through my body, but still my mouth moves with hers and my hands come to her hips. Her hands slide over my chest and stomach and she suddenly makes a very happy sound against my mouth. She looks at me in surprise and then pulls up my T-shirt, after which she runs her hands over my chest and stomach with an eager look. West makes a whistling sound and he also expresses his admiration.

The fact that Abbey likes my physical appearance doesn't bother me, but when I see the admiration in West's eyes I feel my body reacting...

Fuck...

''Someone did their best in the gym'' Abbey says with admiration and I shrug sheepishly.

"I had to be fit for work" I mumble with my eyes on the wall, hoping to sort out my spiraling thoughts.

"Someone's not quite ready yet" Abbey mumbles as her hands slide over my crotch, she looks at me challengingly and sits down on her knees between us.

"Look... That's the perfect position" West says with a smile, clearly more sane than half an hour ago even though he still clearly has a mist in his eyes.

"Suck him" he says commandingly and fuck me if that voice doesn't do anything to me, I take a deep breath and try to get my heart rate down. I don't notice that Abbey opens my pants and pulls them down with my boxers, my eyes are closed and the world revolves around me.

"I want you two to kiss" Abbey says and my eyes shoot open in panic and catch West's. West really doesn't seem to care and shrugs. Before I can protest, he puts a hand on my neck and smashes his lips against mine. They're warm and soft and everything I imagined him to be, he tastes like whiskey en West and that's very good for my libido.

''Oooh yes! That gets him goooooing, look at that!'' I hear Abbey say in the distance and I suddenly come down to earth. I became painfully hard after this kiss and it had nothing to do with Abbey who is on her knees looking at my crotch with admiration.

"Fuck... Fuck... I can't do this" I whisper in panic and I hastily pull up my boxers and pants and close them with difficulty.

"You okay man?" West asks carefully and I shake my head and run my hands through my hair.

"I'm not feeling well... Must be the Alcohol" I mumble as I try to calm myself down.

"Sorry.." I mumble softly and I walk out of the room as quickly as possible, and as if everything couldn't get worse...

I bump into Jackson.

"Dude... Where were you" he grunts in annoyance and I look anywhere but at him.

"I was... Just busy," I mumble and suddenly feel a bit dizzy.

"I'd like to go home... But I can call a taxi if you don't want to leave yet?" I say but Jackson immediately shakes his head

"I want to leave, you know that" he says and I chuckle, how could I forget that my non-social brother didn't like being here at the party.

''How much have you had? You're wobbling on your legs'' he growls disapprovingly and I roll my eyes.

"Too much... That's why I want to go home" I mumble and he nods, we both walk towards the exit of the clubhouse when my name is called from behind us. Hammer and Morgan walk over and stand in front of us, Hammer has a big grin on his face.

"Did you have a good time Navy?" he says with a wink and I can't prevent the blush that comes to my cheeks, I roll my eyes and shake my head.

"Nothing happened..." I mutter a bit stupidly and he chuckles and shakes his head.

"We're going to have our hands full with West, I can tell you that" he laughs and I feel Jackson's questioning look on my side.

"How about joining the club Navy?" Hammer suddenly asks and I look at him in surprise.

"Oh... Yes, I had already thought about it today" I say, shrugging my shoulders.

''Nice! You know what? Come and have breakfast with us on Monday, so you can see what it's like when there's no party. After breakfast we will all go for a ride of about 2 hours, maybe you can join us if you have a motorcycle?'' he says and I shake my head.

"I never had time to purchase one, but it's definitely on my list of purchases" I say and he nods approvingly.

"In any case, come over for breakfast, maybe we can arrange something for you... I think you will fit in well with us, just like your brother" he says and he holds out his hand, I shake his hand and smile... Even if it's a bit forced. I really don't want to be here right now... I can't face West right now.

"You look a bit pale darling, are you okay?" Morgan asks worriedly after which she puts a hand on my shoulder, I look at her a bit sheepishly and shrug my shoulders.

"A little too many shots..." I say with a forced grin and she laughs out loud, Hammer also seems to like it all.

"Let's go" Jackson grumbles next to me and I nod, we walk together towards the car and I sit down.

“What happened?” Jackson asks as we drive off the property and I sigh deeply, not knowing whether to make an excuse or tell the truth.

"I uh... Had a few too many shots with West, and he... Suggested sharing a Devil's girl..." I mumble and I hear Jackson swearing next to me, but when I look to the side I see a grin on his face.

"And how did that go for you?" he asks with a laugh in his voice and I punch him in the arm.

"Not my cup of tea... My mind wasn't there either, so I left," I say irritated and Jackson chuckles, he replaces my suffering all too funny.

"So West is alone with that lady now?" he asks and I shrug my shoulders and look out the window.

The idea that he might be involved with her now gives me a pang of jealousy, and that jealousy is completely misplaced... Because it's very clear that West is straight, so I have to completely ignore my feelings for him. Hopefully we can still be just friends after this, but I guess we'll see on Monday how that goes.

"On Monday after the ride I want to start training you, so that you know exactly how the garage works" Jackson says when we arrive at his house and I nod silently.

"Hey... Are you okay?" he asks with a punch on my shoulder and I look at him and nod with a smile.

"Yes, tired and drunk" I mumble and he grins.

Not much later I'm showered and already in bed thinking about the evening... It's actually bizarre that a man my age has so much trouble coming out of the closet, but I just don't want people to think differently about me... I think.

I may look tough and big on the outside, but I'm a pretty sensitive guy. Like my brother, I like people to think that I don't care about anything in the world, when it's actually the opposite.

The room spins and I squeeze my eyes shut to focus so I don't get nauseous, it was a really bad idea to do so many shots in a row... Especially after not drinking alcohol at all for such a long time. Even though we are allowed to have a beer every now and then on base, that is something I never do, I am there to work and alcohol is not part of that.

I try to focus on sleeping but all I see is West's face and the feeling I had when his lips touched mine...

This is going to be a very restless night.