Where I Belong
Chapter 45

Leaning in the door way I bit my lip watching as Nate moved around the kitchen. How did I end up here? Walking towards the island in the middle I leaned against it. "You smell better" He winked pouring me a fresh glass of wine before turning to put it back in the fridge. Feeling my mouth fall open I raised my eyebrows. Noticing the cut vegetables on the chopping bored I picked up carrot and threw it at him watching as it bounced of his head. Smiling sweetly at him I crossed my arms over my chest.

"Did you just throw a carrot at me Miss Mendez?" He asked picking the carrot up from the floor.

"Don't know what you're talking about" Picking my glass up I winked at him over the top of it. "Hm I see. Must have been a ghost". Biting my lip so I wouldn't smile I sucked in a breath. Edging his way towards me I knew he was up to something. Stopping at the cut vegetables he picked up a piece of carrot and threw it into his mouth. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. Before I could blink his arms were around my waist, his head leaning on my shoulder "It's not nice to throw things" He whispered "I could have gotten hurt".

I couldn't think, I could barely breath with how close he was to me. Running his nose up the side of my neck my head fell back against his chest. Breathing deeply a moan escaped my mouth as he nibbled on my ear lobe..... and then he was gone. Leaving me all hot and bothered.

What the hell? Was he teasing me?

"You hungry?" He asked pulling the fridge door open.

I was so confused. One minute he was all over me the next he's asking if I'm hungry? Definitely not hungry for food. "Not really but if you've prepared something I'll eat".

"You'd be dead by morning if I made you something" He muttered popping the vegetables into a container before putting them into the fridge. "I have some work to take care of. Do you mind?" He asked

And now he was being distant! No!!

"No I have some paper work I need to finish" Smiling I felt my shoulders sag as I made my way towards the stairs. Quickly grabbing my stuff I high tailed it into the spare room I was in the other night. I didn't want to bump into him because I know I wouldn't be able to stay quiet. I mean what the fuck was that? You don't get a girl all hot and bothered and then do nothing about it.

I had been sat for about an hour with my paperwork laid out infront of me but couldn't concentrate one bit. I couldn't stop thinking about what happened earlier. If that would have been Blaze.. no stop. Maybe he was just being a good guy, trying not to over step the line. Fuck, the way he made me feel I would have spread out on the table and let him have his wicked way with me. Dammit why couldn't I stop thinking about sex. My cheeks were flushed and the ache between my legs was beginning to become unbearable. Sighing I gathered my paperwork and shoved it back in my bag. No point in doing it if I couldn't concentrate. Pulling out my phone it vibrated in my hand letting me know I had a text.

'A where are you? Please let me know you're safe. Your dad is a mess and he's going out of his mind. He didn't mean to hit you baby. Please call me'

He didn't mean to hit me? Then why the hell did he? And to make it worse it was infront of everyone. Just as I was about to reply another message came through only this time it wasn't my mom.

'Don't pull this shit sweets. Let me know your safe'

Rolling my eyes I opened up a new message and sent it to both my mom and Blaze.

'I'm safe'

He called me sweets. Feeling the guilt I shook my head. No he wasn't making me feel guilty for nothing. He was the one that slept with someone else. Your shacked up with his brother! Was that why I was feeling guilty? Opening up another message my fingers hovered over the letters. Maybe I was being a little harsh?

'I'm okay you don't need to worry about me'

Staring at the message I had just sent I was about to turn my phone off when his reply came through.

'I'll always worry about you sweets'

Pulling my bottom lip into my mouth I could already feel the tears behind my eyes. Why was I crying? He hurt me yet he still managed to get under my skin. As I was about to turn my phone off it started ringing. Ally "Hello?"

"Ava you need to come down here. I don't have time to explain. Please just come"...

And then she was gone. Feeling the dread settle in my stomach I moved quickly. Pulling on my jeans and boots I left my hair to air dry. Something had happened to Tommy, I could just feel it. Poking my head round Nate's bedroom door I frowned when I couldn't see him. Odd where could he be? Moving down the hall and down the stairs I stopped when I heard the light music coming from the room infront of me. Hm must be his office. Knocking lightly I pushed the door open his eyes shifting from his laptop to meet mine.

"I have to go to work" I said chewing on my bottom lip.

"Everything okay?" He asked pushing himself up and walking around his desk. Letting out a breath I shrugged my shoulders "One of my dad's oldest friends got gunned down, critical condition. I should have stayed there" Running a hand through my hair I couldn't help but think the worst.

"Stop feeling guilty" Nate sighed placing his hand under my chin "I can't help it. Tommy treats me like his own daughter and I bailed" Shaking my head I took a step back "I have to go, sorry".

"At least let me drive you"

"No you've done enough for me Nate. I'll call you soon" Placing a kiss on his cheek I squeezed his hand before heading out.

Pulling up at the hospital I jumped from my car and ran straight inside. He couldn't die, I couldn't stand and watch my family fall apart. Coming to a halt I frowned, the waiting room was empty. Was I to late? Feeling the tears well a sob fell from my lips.

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"Would you have came that fast if I had called you?".

"W - what's happened? Is he okay?"

"Tommy's fine darlin' in fact he's better than fine. He's stable for now, the fucker just needs to wake up".

Was I missing something? Why did Ally phone me in a panic if Tommy was alright. "Why am I here if Tommy's okay?" I asked turning so I could face him.

Hissing he stormed towards me his hand going under my chin. "Fuck sweets he hit you a dull one" He cursed running his fingers over my cheek gently. Biting my lip I leaned in closer closing my eyes. Why did my heart melt at the sight of him? Placing his hand on the small of my back he pulled me against him so there was no space left between us.

What was I doing?

"Blaze I-.."

"I know darlin' just let me hold you" He whispered.

Being here with him my body relaxed, Blaze was my safe blanket, no matter how much I didn't want him I couldn't stop my body from reacting the way it did.

"Why am I here Blaze?" I croaked opening my eyes to look into his. Had he been to sleep since Tommy had been shot? "You need to rest". I said my hand moving on its own accord to cup his cheek. "You can't think straight on no sleep". "I forced Ally to call you" He winced when he noticed my glare "I needed to see you, to make sure you were okay".

I wanted to pull my self out of his hold, I wanted to curse at him, wanted to hit him but I couldn't move from the comfort of his arms.

"Take me home Blaze" I sighed pulling away from him.

"Where are you staying Ava it's not-.."

"No Blaze take me home" I said knowing when his eyes brightenup he knew I meant home.

Walking into the clubhouse I noticed the atmosphere was dull. No music, no chatter, no life. Everyone was in there own little world, captured by there own thoughts. My dad was no where to be seen and I was greatful for that. I didn't want to speak to him, I wasn't ready to forgive. What kind of man hits there own daughter? I don't even know why I asked Blaze to bring me here. Nothing good ever comes out of it.

"Ava can we talk?" Blaze asked knocking me out of my thoughts. What could he possibly want to talk about? Apologise for hurting me yet again? Tell me how sorry he was and that it wouldn't happen again? I let my guard slip at the hospital by asking him to bring me here and I wasn't about to let that happen again.

"Ava im-.."

"Sorry?" I asked cutting him off "You seem to be saying that a lot to me these days Blaze. Now what exactly are you sorry for now?" I asked knowing the attention was now on us. "Sleeping with another girl? Hurting me yet again? Or is it just a sorry let me back into your panties?" I snapped. This is always what happens, we can never seem to have a conversation without arguing and that is why we should never be together. "Come on Blaze" I laughed watching his eyes fall into slits "What is it you're apologising for this time?".

Taking a hold of my fore arm he dragged me out of ear shot and pulled me into my dads office slamming the door shut behind us. I would usually have reacted to him putting his hands on me, would have usually put up a fight kicking and screaming but by now I was used to it. " Did you bring me in here just to glare at me?" I asked

"Why did you ask me to bring you here?" He snapped. That was a good question. Why did I ask him to bring me here? Frowning I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth. "Come on Ava. Why did you ask me to bring you here?" He yelled storming towards me.

"I don't know" I snapped throwing my hands in the air. "I don't know" I whispered running a hand through my hair. There was something about Blaze. No matter what had happened or how much we fought and argued I always seem to go back to him. No matter how much I tried to fight it I couldn't. It was like a moth to a flame me being the moth I knew I was going to get burnt every time.

"You gotta do better than that sweets".

"What do you want me to say?" I roared my hands balling into fists "You think that if you apologise we'll just sweep what happened under the carpet? Pretend everything's okay?. I'm not one of those girls Blaze, you knew that the first time you layed eyes on me all those years ago" Catching my breath I closed my eyes and sighed. How much more was he going to put me through? More lies? More hurt? More tears? I didn't want to hurt anymore and I defiantly didn't want to cry. "They meant nothing" Moving towards me slightly I shook my head holding up my hand. I didn't want him near me. I didn't want him to touch me. "And I suppose the next one and the one after that will mean nothing too? I trusted you more than any other guy and you broke that. I gave you my virginity god". Already feeling the tears I tried blinking them away.

"Sweets-"..

"Don't call me that" I spat "We agreed you'd leave me alone if I told you I didn't want you yet you still tricked me into getting me on my own. What is it that you want from me?".

"What the fuck is going on in here?" My dad roared bursting through the door. Quickly wiping my tears so he couldn't see them I caught the guilt in his eyes when they landed on my face. "Is someone going to tell me whats going on? You're giving the whole damn place a fucking show".

"Nothing I was just leaving" I sa catching the concern in his eyes. Oh so now he's concerned. Wasn't that when he smacked the shit out of my face.

"You are not going anywhere, sit" he yelled before turning and looking at Blaze "If you've hurt her I'll replace out about it. Fucking sort your shit out the pair of you" Grunting he slammed the door shut behind him. Yeah and he was batshit crazy if he thought I was staying here. Walking towards the door I pulled the handle and cursed when it didn't open. He had locked the door, what was I some caged animal that needed sorting?

"You have got to be kidding me" I groaned. So this is what he means by sorting our shit out? Locking us in a room together like a pair children. Letting out a sigh I went and sat on my dads chair. May as well get comfortable, god knows what time he'll let us out. Taking out my phone I fought back the smile when I saw I had a text from Nate.

'Hope your okay! You need anything call me and if you don't call anyway :) P. S I have a bottle of La Crema chilling with your name on it. N x'