Where I Belong
Chapter 68

"Where we going boss?" Shane asked as soon as I closed the door behind me.

"You hungry?" He asked wrapping his arm around my shoulder so he could pull me closer. I was starving but I wanted to go home have a bath and then sleep. Shaking my head no I listened as Nate told him to drive straight home. "How did you know I was ready to leave?" I asked a yawn escaping my mouth.

"Looks like your dad saved my number oh and congratulations big sis" He grinned kissing the top of my head. Smiling I lifted my head from his chest and pecked him on the lips "Thank you".

"Sorry about being an ass earlier" He whispered running his fingers up and down my arm.

We had bigger problems!

"He knows Nate"

"Who knows?" He asked

Pulling away from him I sat up so I could look at him. "Blaze knows and I don't know what to do I don't know what he's going to do". I didn't want to feel guilty about the situation and I know I shouldn't but it was eating away at me already. I was scared.

"He knows about us?" He questioned

"He knows I know you he thinks we're having sex. What if he does something stupid Nate? With all this shit going down with the club I'm afraid he'll do something reckless".

"Blaze is a big boy Ava who can take care of himself. He'll be pissed but does he have a right to be? You two were never a thing so he doesn't have the right to be angry. I get why he is angry but he blew his chance and I'm sorry but I'm glad he did because if he didn't you wouldn't be sitting here right now". Taking my hand in his he brought it to his lips and kissed my knuckles. "I'm serious about this Ava I want to give it a good shot all I'm asking from you is that you try too". "I want to try too Nate" Smiling up at him I lay my head against his chest and enjoyed the rest of the drive to his house.

"Do you think you could drop me off at my house?" I asked as the car started to slow down. It had been one hell of a day and I just wanted my own bed with no one there to bug me or babysit me.

"You sure?" He asked

"Yeah it's been a rough day and I just want to be on my own and sleep in my own bed".

"And there I thought I was going to be lucky enough to wake up next to your gorgeous face" He grinned. "It's not a problem babe I'll drop you off".

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Kissing him goodbye Nate never drove off until I was inside. Locking the door behind me I leaned against it and closed my eyes. It had been one long ass day and I couldn't wait for it to be over. I had no idea what was going to happen but I knew it was going to blow up in my face. My mom was the only person that knew I was dating Nate and I was dreading what my dad would say when he found out.

Pushing my self of the door I kicked of my shoes and went straight to the kitchen. I needed some wine and defiantly some chocolate. Taking the chilled bottle out the fridge I opened my cupboard and reached for a glass. Now I just needed some chocolate and I was good to go. Turning around my breath caught in my throat as the bottle slipped from my hands smashing all over the kitchen floor.

"I'm not that scary sweets".

"What are you doing here Blaze and how did you even get in?" I sighed really not in the mood for whatever he was here for. Bending down I started picking up the larger bits of glass.

"I want to know how" He said

"How what?" I asked really not in the mood for this. All I wanted was to drink my wine and eat my chocolate in peace was that to much to ask? Draining the water from my mop I started cleaning up the spilled wine. What a bloody waste. Spraying some bleach onto the floor I gave it another once over before going into the fridge and taking out another bottle. Pouring some into a glass I took a sip and closed my eyes as it slid down my throat. "How you met him" He spat

"I met him in a bar I had no idea he was your brother Blaze". I said honestly.

"Are you fucking him?" He asked causing me to choke on my wine.

"No" I hissed placing my glass onto the counter. Why did he have to say it like that? Why couldn't he just ask if we were having sex?

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"Have you fucked him?"

"Why do you care so much?" I asked "It has nothing to do with you who I have sex with".

"So you have" He laughed "And there I thought you were innocent but you're not you're just like the rest of them. What is it about him? Is it because he has cash? A fancy house? Flashy cars?" he snapped all the while making his way towards

me.

"Stop it Blaze you had your chance and blew it you said it yourself" I snapped.

That threw him of guard he had no idea I was listening. "You also said you weren't going to bother me anymore but yet here you are".

"That's before I found out you were fucking my brother".

"I'm not fucking him" I screamed. How many times would I have to say it before he gets it through his thick skull. "I don't want you here so please leave" I said finishing what was left in the bottom of my glass. "Why him Ava?" He asked pulling out a smoke and lighting it up. "Why my brother out of all the men you could get it has to be him" He grit out.

"Because I like him he treats me the way a girl should be treated he's nice to me. He asks how I'm feeling he asks how my days been" I sighed giving up. "I don't have to worry about coming home and replaceing him in bed with another girl. He makes time for me, puts work on hold for me. It's him because I can be me in front of him I feel safe and I feel wanted". I had no idea I was crying until I tasted the saltiness of my tears. "He looks at me like I'm the only girl in the world". "So everything I'm not then".

"What is it you want from me Blaze? I can't wait around for you until you decide you want to be a one woman man I don't want to hurt anymore or be hurt anymore. Nate makes me happy being with him makes me happy and I'm sorry if you don't approve but I really don't care".

"You weren't saying that last night when you were all over me".

"You make me feel things I shouldn't" I argued back. "I don't like it". He was bad for me and I knew it from the start. I had to think about me from now on and no one else. I wanted to be with Nate.

"Bullshit Ava you like the excitement the rush face it darling you like a bad boy and that's exactly why you ended up in my bed".

"Along with how many other girls Blaze? oh that's right you probably don't remember" I snapped.

"Jealous?" He laughed

"Why would I be jealous? I wasn't enough for you and I'm okay with that but you need to let go and leave me alone. If you want to fuck bitches all your life then be my guest. I'm moving on with a guy that wants to be with me". "I want to be with you".

"No you like the idea of being with me you like the idea of me being on the back of your bike but sadly that's not going to happen. I want a relationship Blaze just not with you".

He didn't say much after that he just leaned against my counter staring of into space. To say it was awkward would be an understatement I've never seen him so quiet before. Pouring some more wine into my glass I stood watching him waiting for any type of reaction or at least for him to say something.

"I thought you were going to become my wife one day thought you were going to be the mother of my children. When I saw you in there tonight holding onto Leighton so tightly it was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen". "Blaze stop..-"

"I fucked everything up" He sighed "I fucked everything up like I always do".

"I'm sorry"

"Don't apologise darlin' this is in no way your fault. I fucked it up from the beginning and I never seen what I had never realised I had truly lost you until tonight standing on those hospital stairs". "Blaze please don't do anything stupid"

"You said you wished I was dead and do you know what I wish I was. Everything I have done to you if my mom was here she would skin me alive. No one deserves to be treated the way I treated you".

I didn't know what to do didn't know what to say. I had never seen Blaze like this before and I didn't know how to handle it. Walking towards me he grabbed me causing a gasp to fall from my lips.

Pushing my loose hair behind my ears he tilted my chin up so I was looking into his eyes. Wiping away my tears he grabbed a hold of my chin and kissed me like his life depended on it and before I could push him away he pulled back. "Make sure he treats you right because if he doesn't I'll be after him".