Where I Belong
Chapter 91

But I did know he was doing it.

It was hard not to notice when I could feel his eyes burning into me whenever we were in the same room.

God knows how long we both just sat there staring at each other. Could have been hours could have been seconds who knows but I do know this I think I was falling for him again.

"I notice" I said breaking the silence and my stare. "I know when you're staring at me even when you think I don't".

It was hard not to when every time he did the hairs on the back of my neck stood up. "You make me feels things that scare me Blaze and I don't know how to handle it. We've been over this hundreds of times and yet I can't shake it". "Then don't shake it" He sighed moving in closer so there was no gap between us.

Smiling I took a hold of his hand "We don't work Blaze and you know how it ends every time we try".

"It will be different this time Ava, I'll be different this time. I almost lost you to death and that was the scariest thing I have ever been through. Those 3 weeks were the toughest and hardest weeks of my life. I don't want to be the one that only gets to stare at you from a distance I want to be the one that takes you to bed every night, the one that holds your hand and tells you everything will be alright. I want to be the one that puts the smile on your face everyday, the reason behind that smile. I want to lay in bed at night and listen to you telling me how your day was. I want to see you round with our child inside you. I want to be your man Ava but most importantly I want to make you happy". Wow

"Sweets please don't cry I'm sorry".

Wait I was crying?

"It all sounds to good to be true" I croaked wiping at my eyes. "I like us right now Blaze I like where we are but I don't know if I'm ready to give you another chance".

As the words left my mouth the cabin door was pulled open Ally and Cage making their entrance.

"I don't do woods" She grumbled shoving her hair out of her face and falling into the chair opposite me.

Chuckling I watched as Blaze got up from kneeling and disappeared through to the bedroom.

"Why do you sound so out of breath?" I asked noticing how the front of her jeans were dirty.

"Because that through there is an idiot" She huffed peeling her jacket from her body. "We'll have enough gas until we get there" She mocked "The car ran out of gas and he made me walk for 2 hours". "Stop your whining" Cage grunted as he passed her a beer. "It's only a little dirt" He grinned sitting on the arm of the chair beside her.

Rolling her eyes she took a sip of her beer before setting her gaze on me. "How are you feeling? Are you in any pain?".

"Nothing I can't handle" I sighed as Blaze made his way back into the living area with only a pair of joggers on. Sitting down beside me only then did I notice the beer in his hand.

"I really want a beer" I sighed knowing with the tablets running through my body that was not allowed.

"I'll have one for you" He winked placing his arm around the back of the sofa so his hand was leaning on my shoulder. Sticking my tongue out at him like a child I watched him smirk over the top of his bottle.

"Oh I brought you something" Ally piped up shoving her hand into her jacket pocket and pulling out my phone.

"I gotta take this" Blaze mumbled as he shot Cage a look before they both left the cabin. Obviously something he didn't want me to know and frankly I was okay with that.

"Just leave it there I'll charge it in the morning" Truth be told I was afraid to turn it on because I knew if there were messages from him I'd have to read them.

"So how have things been between you two?" She asked making herself comfortable. "You seem to have gotten really close after the accident. Are you back together? Everyone will be ecstatic if you are" She grinned not letting me get a word in.

"Ally we are not back together heck we never really were together in the first place not that it's got anything to do with anyone. And we've always been close, he's always been like that with me".

"Like what?" She smirked causing me to roll my eyes. As much as I love her she sure did like a gossip. "Don't roll your eyes at me A, I'm your best friend and this is what best friends do".

"He's my person" I shrugged not really knowing how else to describe it. "He's always there when I need him even if I hate him he's there. Gosh Ally he sat by my bed that whole time and not just that, everything he has done for me before me and you were even friends. We fight and we argue but I know for sure he is always going to be in my life. He gets me Ally like no other person does and it still terrifies the hell out of me. I love him I have for a long time and let me tell you hiding it is not easy and it hurts. I've tried everything to make me stop but deep down I know who my heart belongs to. Even after everything he did to me my heart still skips a beat every time I see him". I sighed no idea where this was all coming from.

"Does he know this?" She asked sitting on the edge of her seat.

"What that I love him? I screamed it at him a few months back" I shrugged. "Doesn't matter anyway because I'm not bringing it back up. We are good just now and do you know how nice it is not to argue with him every damn day?" I smiled. "The funny thing is you two are made for each other" she grinned taking another sip of her beer.

Made for each other? Was she high? Maybe the beer had went to her head.

"We are not made for each other Ally. We are both complete opposites and it's to much hard work. Do you know how they treated me when they all assumed I was his old lady?" I asked

"Like royalty?" She winked "Blaze is VP of course they would all be grovelling at your feet".

"You seem to know more about this than me" I huffed moving slightly so I could get more comfortable.

"Seems to me all you are doing is making excuses. You love him and it's hurting you to hide it so why not tell him again how you feel and just go for it?".

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"Because I'm scared, he hurt me so bad the first time Ally and he was so nasty and because I'm not ready to be thrusted back into it all". Sighing I rubbed at my head as I could feel a migraine coming on.

"Ava you do know your dad is the president right?".

Rolling my eyes I chuckled a cushion at her head. "You know what I mean now can we please just drop the subject?" I asked just as the guys came back in.

"Drop what subject?" Blaze questioned as he made his way towards me.

"Nothing can you please help me to bed I'm starting to get a migraine".

"You've been here less than half an hour and already you've gave my girl a migraine" Blaze joked as he gently picked me up and carried me to the bedroom.

"Night Ally" I yelled as he closed the door behind us. Pulling the covers down he placed me in the middle of the bed. Grabbing two pillows he placed them under my leg so it was elevated and pulled the covers up and around my neck. I didn't realise how tired I was until my head fell against the soft pillows.

Was he going to get in beside me? I could hear him shuffling around but because it was pitch black I couldn't see a thing.

"Are you going to get in?" I asked his movements halting which made it harder for me to tell where about in the room he was.

"I gotta make a few phone calls first but..."

"Yeah you do that" I snapped regretting it instantly. I didn't mean for it to come out sounding pissed but I just wanted him to lay with me. It helped with the nightmares if someone was there.

"Watch your tone darlin' you ain't to old to get put over my knee" Came his chilling voice as he flicked the light on making the hairs on the back of my neck stand up and not in a bad way.