A Kiss For Your Freedom
Chapter 22

- Thank you, I think, I said a little confused. So your boss accepted my ideas?

- My Alpha was as surprised as me by the quality of your work and the perspectives it can offer us. A long-term market capable of making our people live more comfortably. This is exactly what we needed. - Then we can get to work. You have to see what land you can exploit for cultivation, the space you can give it before modifying your production chain.

- I think you should come to the pack to get an idea of how to put everything together.

- Out of the question Jason. I do advertising campaigns, I don't go out into the field and above all I don't go anywhere with you, I said, passing my hand over my brand.

--Does it hurt, he asks, following my eye movements.

- No, it's just unpleasant.

- Because of me?

- I would prefer that we stay focused on work.

- I'm sorry Emma for disrupting your life so much. I wish everything was simpler, that things happened differently.

-You're the one who makes everything difficult.

- Here again I'm sorry, but it's stronger than me. I don't want to get away from you. I don't want to let you slip away from me again. If only you would stop struggling. If only you listened to what your body is asking of you.

- You do not understand. I love him, I mean, I really do. Dorian is a ray of sunshine, my ray of sunshine. He manages to make me smile all day just thinking about him. Between us, it was obvious, it was so strong and it was already there before he left his mark on me. I don't want to lose him, I don't want to hurt him. I know what you are and what I'm supposed to be to you, yet even though you make me react almost uncontrollably, I can't imagine my life without him.

- I know you love him, that's why you manage to push me away like that, but you're going to end up suffering from it. You need me like I need you.

My body begins to tremble as I hear these words. His voice is slightly deeper, although I can detect a hint of pain in it.

- I broached the subject with my Alpha. I explained to him what happened between us a year ago as well as the arrival of another Wolf in your life. It's all my fault, I know it and yet I don't want to give up. My Alpha knows this too, just as he explained to me that although you are not his official companion, the fact that I rejected you makes your bond as strong as the one that could be ours. That's the paradox of the situation, he surely loves you as much as me and losing you would finish him off just like me and you, "I don't feel the same way about you two," I said, lowering my head. I don't want to make him suffer.

- I know, I understood it. I saw the way he makes you smile and even though part of me wants to kill him for that, I can't blame him either, how could he resist you, how could he not succumb to your beauty.

I feel myself blush as he says these words. My body reacts way too much.

-We should work now.

- I know you can't leave him but you could give me a place in your life. I never imagined I would say this one day but to have you, I am ready for a lot.

- What do you mean by leaving a place for you in my life, I said, watching him sit down in front of me.

- I so want to taste you again. To see that spark of lust in your eyes as you wiggled your hips on me while caressing your dream body.

"Stop it," I said, feeling a wave of heat from the pit of my stomach.

I see him close his eyes, inhaling deeply. His smile makes me blush a little more, I know exactly what he's doing but I'm unable to stop my body from reacting. -You smell so good, he said, groaning slightly.

When he opens them again, I'm not even surprised to discover another color. I blow a good breath while trying to regain some composure before answering him,

- Please stop doing that, I say, embarrassed by the reaction of my body which is betraying me.

- You shouldn't be embarrassed, if you had the same ability as me you would feel that I am in the same state as you.

I almost have to bite my lip to keep from letting out a moan as images of our weekend come flooding back to me.

- Let me into your life Emma, give me a place with you.

-I can't do this Jason.

- Dorian knows that what is going to happen is inevitable, I offer another possibility, another choice to all three of us. A solution that, although not perfect, would allow both of us to have you and for you to be with both of us. - I think you fell on your head Jason. Dorian will never accept such a thing.

- But you could. Deep down, you tell yourself that maybe that would be the best solution of all, he said, getting up before walking around my desk to get a little closer to me. Dorian and I have one thing in common although a world separates us and that's you. We both only want you to be happy. Let me love you Emma, let me give you what you need. I'm ready to share you to have you, to give him a place of his own as long as you let me be by your side, he said, placing his hand on my cheek.

The contact of his skin on mine makes me tremble a little more, but my mark begins to pulse and I get up to take a few steps back.

- All this is not fair to Dorian. He feels everything, you know that.

"I know," he said, approaching me again. But I also know that you want it, badly want it. As much as me.

I back up further and further, trying to get away before bumping into the wall behind me.

- Please, I say as he takes another step towards me. Do not do that,

He stops all movements, I know that my words have just reached him. My hand goes to my chest, which I squeeze as he moves away enough for me to finally breathe freely.

- I can never apologize enough for what I did to you Emma, but I will spend the rest of my life making you forget it. I'll let you think about this a bit and let you talk to Dorian about it. I will come back tomorrow morning. I won't force you, I won't force you to do anything, but you will end up giving in of your own free will, Emma, so you might as well resolve it now. My solution is the best, think about it, we'll talk about it tomorrow, he said, approaching me once again before placing his lips on my cheek.

He leaves the room, leaving me trembling, I let myself slide along the wall, placing my hand on my cheek. I understand what Dorian meant, my mind is still fighting but my body has already conquered him, he only reminds me of what happened, of what I felt with him. I did everything to forget these sensations, so as not to compare them with what I experienced with my Wolf, but my body remembers how strong it was, how much, just like with Dorian, I was incapable of do something other than ask for more. I stay in this position for several minutes before getting up and grabbing my things. I have to go. Let me quickly move away from my desk. I manage to get through the club without meeting my sister and as soon as I'm outside I grab my cell phone before hesitating who to call. Mélissa can't understand what's going on and I can't see myself explaining to her that my boyfriend and my ex are both Wolves. And I'm afraid I'll hurt Dorian a little more by calling him. However, it's him who does it and my heart sinks a little more when I see his name appear on my cell phone.

- I'm already on my motorbike, I'll be there in less than ten minutes. Wait for me my dear okay?

-- Okay sweetheart, I'm waiting for you.

I sit on the steps with my head in my hands, realizing that I surely don't deserve a man as caring as him. I don't even pay attention to what's around me, or to people passing by. I just feel like a weight that is way too heavy for my frail shoulders to carry.

- I didn't want to make you suffer more.

I should have known that he wouldn't leave so quickly and yet, I don't look up.

- Dorian is coming to get me, you should leave Jason.

- At least let me wait for him with you. I can't leave you in this state within reach of any danger.

- OK, but don't talk and stay away from me. I need to breathe.

The minutes pass and I only look up when I hear the sound of Dorian's motorcycle. He parks in front of us and quickly gets out before coming to take me in his arms. I'm so angry with myself for putting him through this when his presence, his smell, the warmth of his arms around me manage to reassure me and relax me in a fraction of a second.

- I'll leave you, says Jason, but you should talk to Emma about it. None of us imagined the situation would come to this. If we don't make a choice, we will all suffer. All three. See you tomorrow Emma, he said as he walked away.

Dorian runs his hand over my cheek before kissing me tenderly.

- Tell me where you want to go, my dear?

- I want to go to your house.

- So let's go.

He grabs my hand and I quickly climb behind him, pressing myself against him. Throughout the journey, I feel him sending me waves of tenderness and love. He doesn't blame me. I don't know how he does it, but he doesn't blame me, which almost makes me feel a little more guilty. When we arrive, I let him take me in his arms as he pulls me into his chair in which we sit. These fingers caress my back in a soothing gesture while my hand clings to his t-shirt.

- Tell me, my dear. I'm listening to you, he said in a tender voice.