A Kiss For Your Freedom
Chapter 23

POV Dorian

For long minutes, she talks to me, explains to me what she felt and especially her inability to react to him. But above all, she tells me how much she doesn't want me to suffer and apologizes at length as if she was responsible for all of this. This situation is as much my fault as Jason's. I knew who he was when I marked her and above all what she meant to him. Yet, I can't bring myself to let her go, I don't want to lose her.

- I don't want to lose you either, but I couldn't push him away forever, I feel it. I react harder every time I see him. And I will watch it again and again.

- I know and even though it kills me to say it, I think we should talk about it with him. That the three of us should come together to deal with the situation. He didn't make the right choices a year ago but I didn't have the right to do that either. We are both at fault and unfortunately, you are the one paying the heavy price. I think we both love you enough to stay in the same room without killing each other.

- You don't have to do this, I don't want you to suffer because of me.

- I'm as much at fault as Jason. I knew I shouldn't have marked you, now I have to face the consequences and if that means I have to spend an evening negotiating with him then I can do it. We have to resolve this, he's right about one thing, if we don't, all three of us will suffer.

She takes a long breath before repositioning herself against me. I feel that all this is hurting him and it's almost unbearable feeling.

- Contact him and have him come, here or at your place, but arrange to meet him this evening so that we can talk about all this.

-I don't have his number.

--But your sister must have it.

She sighs a little deeper before getting up and going to get her cell phone on which she taps quickly. The response is not long in coming and she sighs a little louder as she comes back to me while she writes him a message.

"I spoke with Dorian. He thinks it would be a good idea for the three of us to meet up. Are you free this evening? >>

"Of course I'm free. Give me the place and time and I will come. >>

- It's better that we do it at home, I said to Dorian. I don't want to impose his presence here on you.

- Like you want my beautiful. We will do as you wish.

She sends him the address of her apartment as well as a time and quickly, she receives a response.

"Thank you for giving me a chance. See you tonight.

- I'm so sorry about all of this, sweetheart. So sorry for being so weak when you bring me so much happiness.

- You don't have to be sorry love. It is not your fault. For nothing at all.

She spends the rest of the day in my arms, lying against me and it's not until mid-afternoon that we get ready to go back to her place. She is tense, nervous, just like me. We both know that everything is going to be decided tonight. That our future risks changing forever while we don't want to separate, for anything in the world.

Jason's POV

Her message surprised me slightly but deep down I know Dorian feels the same way, he just doesn't want to lose her. I'm quite nervous at the idea of seeing them together, it's crazy I'm helping manage and rebuild a pack, but I dread facing them, I dread that his hold on her is already far too extensive for me to I have the slightest chance.

I park my car in front of her house and follow the instructions she left me. I must say that she lives in a beautiful residence and when I get in the elevator I am more nervous than ever. The doors open onto a huge landing with a single door.

I'm moving more slowly than I'd like. He is far from the proud predator who shows himself ruthless in the face of these enemies. I replace myself trembling in front of a door waiting for the woman in my life to be willing to give me a place near her. I take a deep breath before raising my hand to knock but the door opens and unfortunately for me, it's not her who opens it.

- Good evening Jason, come in, he said, stepping aside.

I replace him almost too polite, yet I understand that he does all this for her.

- Thank you, I said as I entered the apartment.

The decor is way too cold for it to look like it. I look around looking for her to replace her in the living room. Too nervous to dare to approach.

It's crazy how beautiful she can be. My Wolf is agitated, if I listened to him I would jump on him.

- Come on, Dorian says to me as he walks towards her.

I approach in turn, she avoids my gaze. The situation seems really difficult for her. Dorian sits on the armchair while she hugs herself as a final barrier against me.

- I wouldn't hurt you Emma, I would never force you to do anything. I swear to you. You're the one who asked me to come, please don't reject me. Give me a chance.

She looks at him as if he could give her an answer and the way she relaxes while he smiles at her hurts while reassuring me. Dorian does not intend to intervene, on the contrary, he helps her so that everything goes well.

- I knew when I marked her that I shouldn't have done it, he said, blowing. We both have our faults and in the end it's Emma who suffers.

- I agree. I was stupid, I should have trusted our bond but I didn't want to rob her of her humanity. Of his normal life, of his work. Of what she has always known.

- I can't act as if I understood your behavior at that moment, but on the other hand I know that the more Emma pushes you away, the more she suffers. I can't stand this for long, she's in pain because of both of us. So it's up to us to sort this out. -I know. Emma loves you, she loves you enough to keep fighting.

- And she reacts enough for me to feel it deep within me.

-I can't give up.

- And I already marked it.

- I know. That's why I made him this offer. It's not going to suit any of our Wolves, but for her, I could handle it.

- For her, I can also do it, even if it's with you.

- I love it.

-I love him too.

- You both realize that I'm in the same room as you. Stop acting like I'm not there.

- Very good, I said turning to her, what do you want Emma? What do you really want?

- I don't know, but what you are suggesting seems completely inconceivable to me. I mean, I can't be with both of you. It's impossible, she said without really daring to look at me.

- None of us are ready to abandon you, said Dorian, passing his hand over his cheek. Sharing you with him isn't the worst thing ever, losing you on the other hand is unimaginable.

I get up to get closer to her, to come to her side too. She is so close yet still so far away. Dorian leans towards her to kiss her in hopes of soothing her and once again, it works.

I take the opportunity to place my hand on her thigh, making her tremble by this simple contact. I see her place one of these arms around her neck while at the same time, she places her other hand on mine, slipping her fingers between mine. My heart leapt in my chest. She takes a step towards me, she accepts that I am part of her world.

He leaves those lips to travel down her neck as she turns her head towards me, her cheeks flushed, her eyes glistening. She is so beautiful, more than I ever remember.

I move a little closer, attracted by those full lips. Seeing me do it, she panicked slightly before saying,

- Wait Jason, I'm not sure I can do that.

- Please Emma, don't push me away, Dorian agrees, he told you. It won't hurt him, I guarantee it.

I move forward just a little bit more, enough for our breaths to mingle, for his breath to caress my skin.

- Please, Emma, I said, placing my fingers on her lips.

I see her close her eyes as she presses Dorian's head a little more against her neck. Even though I know that it's not me who makes her feel this way, I like seeing her like this, seeing her as open as during this weekend.

These lips open slightly, her tongue timidly caresses my fingers. A deep growl escapes my throat as I break the distance between us by melting into those lips, finally capturing the object of all my desires.

Immediately, it's like an explosion occurs throughout my body. My hand passes over his cheek, brushing Dorian's hair as he continues to kiss his neck. My tongue asks for access which she does not hesitate to give me. I had been dreaming of it for so long, that all I wanted was this. I hear her moan softly as she wraps her arm around my neck to pull me a little closer to her.

She trembles in our arms, arching her back as if her body finally understood that there was no longer any reason to fight. I feel Dorian shift slightly, she leaves my lips to look at him, probably fearing that he might leave.

- I'm not leaving, my dear, I could never leave you, he said, kissing her in turn.

Knowing that he's kissing her when I've just done it gives me a special feeling. It has nothing to do with jealousy. On the contrary, I think I like what I see and when she grabs my t-shirt to pull me towards her, Dorian gives way to me without it seeming to bother him.

I rediscover the flavor of those lips with delight and this time, she moans more openly when I let one of my hands slide over her chest. Our hands touch on his body, brush against each other without trying to escape from each other. The more she trembles the more we want more, I feel it, he wants it as much as me, how could we resist this smell that she gives off, the sound of these moans which almost implore us to give him more.