Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 213

Jonah was staring out into the empty parking lot, only having two cars. Josephs and ours, separated in the darkness.

Jonah made another deep sigh like he didn't know if he really was going to kill Joseph or not; that was making snivels, having a blanket that I had found in one of the offices and swiped it, sitting next to him and staring at the tall man in the window, that was having his hands at his sides and neck slightly bent, beaten like he didn't know what to do either with what Joseph had told him, making me squeeze his hand again, this wasn't good.

"All three locations?" Jonah turned around slowly when Joseph gave a slight nod, wanting to cry again, not giving a shit that Jonah was observing him like he was looking for something I couldn't see. To my surprise, he didn't blow up. He was not even waving the gun he had tucked inside his jacket when my eyes met the blue-green that looked serious and just as defeated as Joseph's by my side.

"Andrea.... I'm sorry...." Joseph was still shaking when my heart clenched hearing his broken voice, not knowing what to do anymore.

"I know, babe, I know...." I was still rubbing his hands with Jonah staring at me, wanting me to leave so he could talk freely to Joseph. That was not f*****g happening!

I was staring right back, making sure that Jonah knew I wasn't moving from the spot of sitting next to Joseph in the fancy office of mine, having my hands clasped over his, feeling slightly lightheaded since I had been so angry at what happened to Joseph, someone tried to hurt him!

"Oh god...." Joseph was howling louder when the next man walked inside, looking stern and ready to take out anyone, when I made a sad smile seeing him, Tom. That's what Jonah had been waiting for; it didn't surprise me at all.

"Jonah, do something!?" I was rubbing the back of Joseph, still sniffling. Tom exchanged looks with Jonah, who hadn't moved from where he was standing even when his left hand had walked inside my office.

"Do what? Ma is going to kill him when she replaces out. I can't stop that...." I didn't believe that for a second. Joseph had given up three locations of something they didn't want to tell me about; we could fix this!

"We could take them out, make it look like it was done by...." Tom was speaking when he faded out like he was stopping because of me and my face that was struck with the horror of even thinking about them being out there killing people, what if something happened to Jonah!? I would die without him!

"Too risky, plus no manpower...." Jonah's face was blank like he wasn't disturbed at all thinking about taking out people when I had stopped rubbing Joseph's back, feeling sick like all this headache that was making me even more nauseous than I had begun to get waiting on Jonah.

"Give over the company." I said it cold when Joseph looked like he wasn't sure if he would rather die than do that. I made a sneer at his stupid babyface, he was going to sign over the f*****g company to Fiona Sullivan, or she was going to kill him for losing whatever was in those places that neither of the men in the room wanted to tell me about.

"What!?" Joseph was up again like he hadn't cried his eyes out and was scowling. No, he was ready to kill me for even saying that about the only thing that was standing between him and certain f**king death!

"Yeah.... yeah.... that could work..." Jonah was still thinking when he had been staring at the wall but had a proud smile looking at me when I didn't look back at him beaming. This wasn't what I wanted either, but I sure didn't want Joseph wrapped in plastic and forgotten somewhere!

"NO! No, that does not work for me! You know how hard I had to get where the fuck I am!? Do you think I'm the only fucking IT security existing? There are fucking hundredths, thousand, and then I'm not even counting the scammers!!" Joseph's face was red, and he had thrown off the blanket, making him look more like he was ready to dig his teeth into people than waiting for someone to execute him; it made me smile amid everything since he had a fire and he didn't give up, finally!

"Joey, stop it. You know you have no fucking choice." Jonah still looked like he didn't care much when Tom was sighing, and he hadn't said a word, that silent bastard. What the fuck was this about anyway!?

"I have a fucking choice, you bitch! If this is about money, you know I'm fucking good for it and..." Joseph's rant was silent by the sound of cocking of a gun, making me freeze up from where I was sitting, seeing Tom holding a pistol at Joseph's back. He stopped like he knew that sound by heart when I stared at them. Jonah looked indifferent, and Tom had no warmness in his brown eyes that lighted up every time he saw Sophia.

"Jonah!?" I was shrieking it all over the room when he didn't look at me, not even once. He didn't care that he had been friends with the same guy standing before him, holding his hand tightly at his sides, just waiting for something to happen.

"Shut up, Andrea, you think that Joey is innocent!? How the fuck do you think they even know where they should hit the depots?! He is a fucking traitor, always has been!" Jonah was furious from nowhere when I was too shocked to know what to say; a traitor!? What the f**k was he talking about? Joseph had left the mob just like he told me!?

"What are you talking about!? Tom, get that fucking gun down, now!" I was up feeling the slight wobble with my stupid ankle when Tom looked at me like he really wanted to, but at the same time, he didn't. He wanted to make sure that Joseph knew he disapproved of what had come to light.

"Andrea, he is working with fucking Evans, and he has been for some time now, long before you even came back. You think one guy can make all this and not have some f*****g connections?!" Jonah was looking around when I followed his mocking stare as I saw it too. This place was huge and...... f**k! He was a traitor, wasn't he!?

"No, don't listen to that shit, Andrea. You know I would never do that!" Joseph made a painful huff when Tom pushed the gun harder into his back, making me cringe seeing him being so fucking scared and begging me. Couldn't he be f*****g innocent? Maybe he did make a mistake!?

"Jonah, please stop!" I was pleading with him when he sighed like he didn't want to tell me more bad news. Telling me that James was a f*****g serial killer wasn't enough!? He came closer, having Joseph's phone that he hadn't wanted to give over, just staring at Jonah with hateful eyes.

"Just fucking look at what he has and then fucking tell me to stop." Jonah had given me Joseph's phone, feeling the cold horror of seeing the pictures of me sent to someone that I didn't know who it was or why!? What the f**k was this!? I looked back up at Joseph's face losing whatever shield he had left, not him too!?

"Joseph, I ...." I didn't know what to say when nobody was speaking, Jonah taking the phone out of my hand and me staring at the guy with a babyface who cared for me. He did care, and I knew that, whether he was a traitor or not. "Andrea, he just wanted to know if you were getting back together with Jonah and .... I never sent anything else, okay? I love you!" Joseph was staring at me back with honest eyes when I wasn't sure what to believe anymore, I had trusted him with my kids, and he did this! F*****g sent pictures of me, and he wanted me to forgive him. How!?

"Shut up! I'm this fucking close to splattering your brains out all over the floor!" to my surprise, it was Tom that was speaking with a dark voice that didn't fit him, not the version I knew when Joseph flinched from the gun being pushed against his head, showing everyone that Tom was f*****g serious to my horror!

"Yeah, sure... sure you didn't send anything else, that's why you got this... locations, drops, times, schedules... Do you think that Evans is the only one with spies? Ma will replace this out without me, and you know that...." Jonah was leaning against the desk, scrolling on the phone like he was confirming what he already knew with a mocking smile on his handsome face.

"Fuck you!" Joseph snarled when I was still too shocked, fucking hurt that another person I trusted and loved had let me down, f**k!

"Yeah, you would like that, wouldn't you, for me to fuck you?" Jonah's mocking smile grew. I know that hurt; it just did. Having his eyes on the floor, Joseph pressed his lips together like he didn't want to listen anymore. I felt the same way, sitting down again, even colder than usual. I was getting f*****g sick of this of seeing Tom having a gun at Joseph's head, looking like he would have no problem pulling the trigger; it was making me want to gag!

"That's what's been the problem all along. You are having f*****g feelings for me and not returning them, so you wanted to get even; take out Andrea! isn't that right?!" Jonah was closer now like he had lost the playfulness grabbing Joseph by his collar when they were staring into each other's eyes, trying to see who would crack first when the tiny twitches of a grin were coming over Joseph's face, staring up at Jonah's serious one.

"You were always such a self-absorbed asshole. have been since the day we met, fucking bully!" Joseph was still smirking when he was laughing the slightest, amused over what Jonah had told him, making me look up, holding my hands hard into a knot, breathing heavier in this f*****g standoff that was happening when I just wanted to lie down and not feel so bad!

"The only reason I haven't done more is because of Andrea, you bastard!" Jonah looked offended when he let Joseph go, making him stumble back into the gun against his head, me whining when he looked like he got hurt.

"Andrea, whatever they fucking tell you! I never meant to hurt you or the kids. I care for you, always have!" Joseph stepped towards me when I got up and felt like the world was spinning, holding my head like I was drunk. I didn't understand anything. Joseph was being pulled back by Tom like Joseph would hurt me, looking worried. They all did from seeing me looking lost.

"Baby, what's happening!?" Jonah had already turned away from Joseph, forgetting that he just was about to kill him. Joseph struggled against Tom to no use, wanting to help me too. I knew that when I was holding my hand over my mouth, clenching my jaws, I was really going to puke over the fancy carpet!

"I feel sick....." I was gritting my teeth through every word feeling Jonah's warm hand on my back, rubbing me quickly like he didn't know what to do, just like the rest of them staring at me when I had kicked off my high heels, not wanting to fall over and break my fucking ankle again!

"Get her down the sofa, now!" Joseph ignored the gun against his head, shoving Jonah to the side like he couldn't get to me fast enough, lying on the surprisingly comfortable sofa with my feet on the armrest.

"that's fucking it! I'm calling Shannon, and she will get her ass over here!" Jonah was tapping at his phone, looking like he was scared shitless of seeing me like this made me do a slight smirk, like this was the worst time I had ever been hurt when he was around? I had f*****g fractured my hip, which still hurt sometimes when I was exhausted.

"She's expensive." Tom was still holding the gun at Joseph, having a frown, his eyes switching back and forth between being worried and still wanting to kill Joseph for being a traitor.

"Does it look like I fucking care!? She is getting her ass over here and fixing what the fuck is going on with my girl!" I had closed my eyes, still feeling dizzy, it wasn't as bad as Jonah made it out to be, but I sure was feeling sick.

"Yeah, I know! I want to fucking help her, same as you, but the reality is you can't afford her anymore!" Tom was hissing it, still having his gun trained at Joseph, which made a sigh like he knew that too; apparently, that bitch that had looked at my ankle for two minutes and mistreated me was pricey!

"Its fine... really, its fine..." I was still having my eyes closed, breathing through my mouth, trying to get a hold of the feeling that wanted me to puke when I made a slight movement, and it was killing me!

"Fuck! Let's go to the fucking hospital!" Jonah was angry, leaning down to pick me up when I shook my head. No, I was not throwing up on him one more time!

"Just get her some fucking water and saltines, and she is going to be fine....." Joseph was still holding my hand and sitting down on his a*s like he didn't wear a custom-tailored suit, and we all knew it.

"What?! What the fuck is that going to help anything?! She is down for counting, and you want me to fetch water, you motherfucker!?" Jonah was close to getting his gun out when Tom stopped him, having lowered his own, thank God! I was still lying on the couch when Joseph scowled back at the two guys that used to be his friends, or.... That's what I had thought.... No, I wasn't so sure about that anymore. Jonah and Tom were cousins, and Joseph clearly didn't like any of them that much. "Goddamn idiots....." Joseph was murmuring, holding the tip of his nose bridge like he couldn't believe the incompetence around him, acting like he wasn't bawling his eyes out just twenty minutes ago on the same sofa I was occupying. "Andrea, babe, when did you last get your period?" I took a deep breath after hearing that question. What the fuck was he asking me?! That was none of his business, and Jonah looked like he had started to change his mind about not just putting a bullet through Joseph's head.

"That's fucking private!" I was hissing it back when Joseph smirked like he didn't care about me growling like a wounded animal baring my fangs when I had no way of defending myself, no matter what, and he knew that.

"Oh yes, I don't want to fucking know, but I don't understand why I am the only one that's not so fucking stupid getting that you are clearly knocked up!?" Joseph was looking around when I couldn't speak anymore. Not a f*****g word.

Jonah stared at me like he was just as stunned, his eyes meeting mine, confused and, for a second annoyed like he didn't believe it. Shit, I didn't believe it either when I was trying to not hurl my guts out over the floor. Could it be that f*****g easy? "Why is everyone so fucking quiet? You are fucking each other, aren't you?!" Joseph was up again, scoffing, walking out the door like he wasn't just supposed to be executed for being a traitor when Tom made a growl. Yeah, it was a real growl that Joseph rolled his eyes at.

"I'm going to get some fucking water!" Joseph sneered back when Tom followed him like he didn't trust him to go get water and come back, and I wouldn't trust him either. He wasn't innocent, was he? Jonah had been right about that part; every f*****g guy I knew was a killer or a criminal.

Jonah was still frozen when I was breathing lightly, still not trying to mess up this place. My head was down; this was not what I had expected would happen.

"I thought your cum didn't work...?" Jonah made an irritated face when I said that and blinked at him, not knowing what to say, him still not moving from where Joseph had pushed him to when he was getting to me.

"It doesn't. I mean, it's not supposed to... or it's a fucking marginal chance that...." He stopped as he had just realized something when he looked lost and hurt instead of confused. I was confused too, but not scared, not like he was. Inconvenient? Sure, was it going to be hard? Fuck yes. But was I afraid? No.

"You didn't f**k Buck did you before we got back together or..." He stopped when I scowled upon hearing that. Did he accuse me of f*****g Buck behind his back!? How the f**k was that supposed to happen when I was working or being at home, there was no time to f*****g cheat!

"You know what?! Yes! Yes, I did fuck Buck right before we got back together, with a f*****g condom, and he didn't even finish because I didn't want to keep on going! Is that good enough for you!?" I wanted to get up and leave his sorry ass when I was putting down my feet on the floor when Jonah's scowl became deeper when I didn't want to hear it anymore. He told me to my face that I had been cheating on him just because there was a considerable risk that Joseph, that smart ass, was right. I didn't get my period. I thought it had just been late, fuck I could barely keep track of my life, let alone when I was going to bleed!

"Andrea, fucking stop that! I believe you, but you got to understand that I don't get how the f**k this has happened!? I have been with Shailene for almost four years, and she never got pregnant, and it was my fault! Don't you get that us even having Kira is a fucking miracle, and now you are pregnant again!?" Jonah was closer now, having his hand on his head like he was trying so hard to understand this, like me. I didn't get it, but I didn't care! That was the difference between us!

"Fine, let's just do a fucking abortion, and you can go back to fucking Shailene with that bad cum that didn't fucking take on her!" I was up now, not caring that I was still feeling sick, leaving for the door wanting so bad for Joseph to come back with that fucking water he had promised me; it had been almost five minutes, and it didn't take that f*****g long!?

"You're fucking kidding me!?" Jonah was coming after me when I was pushing up the door, feeling sick and weak. Not only was another one of my friends a traitor, but my fucking fiancée was also freaking out over something that should make him happy! "No, no, I'm not fucking kidding! I am not having another baby with some guy that tells me shit, and when it all comes crumbling down, I'm left alone, and nobody is there to help me, just like with Kira!" I was spitting it back at his stunned face. Guilt poured over his eyes when he knew I was right! He left me with her, and I was not having any more kids with someone that didn't want to have them, not with me anyway!

"I am sorry about what happened when you had Kira, and I wish I could go back in time and change that every day, but I can't!" Jonah wasn't screaming like me when I was holding myself to the walls, feeling the cool glass that was made up from the offices underneath my hands, staring at the nice carpet I was so going to hurl over, f**k.

"Andrea, look at me... if you think I'm not happy over this, you are wrong... it's just... the worst fucking timing ever! I'm still trying to get Shay to agree to the divorce. Ma isn't speaking to me, no matter what I say to that fucker that betrayed me! I can't even make a fucking phone call to her. You get that, don't you?!" He stopped when I made a moan rolling my head against the gla*s. He was so f*****g proud and stubborn, wasn't he? Just like Kira.

"I don't fucking understand that you can pull a gun on Joseph in the blink of an eye for him trying to fucking survive, making something of his own. So what if he worked with Austin Evans? You are no fucking better, and don't think for a second that I believe that..." I could feel myself wanting to sit down again, leaning against the glass. Goddamn idiot... I was still cursing when he had his strong arms around me, wanting to help me, and I couldn't say no, never did, and he knew that too.

"You either get that girl to agree to a f*****g divorce, and I don't care how you do it, or I'm going to get an abortion, and we are done." My chest was hurting, saying everything to his stern face, more hurt over that I was putting him on the spot. Again. Jonah didn't speak a damn word at my request, just staring at me like he was trying to figure out if I was serious or not; well, I f*****g was! No matter what, if he f****d me over again, like last time, I wasn't going to give a shit that I loved him more than anyone else! "Hey!" Joseph was looking happier, and Tom was grumpy when Jonah looked up, seeing the duo of what was supposed to be his guys, even if one of them was a f*****g traitor.

Joseph was holding a small bag that he was going to give me, only to be stopped by Jonah's arm, blocking him from even coming close where I was standing still, feeling like I was going to die from sickness and heartbreak seeing the guy I loved being so f*****g torn and I wasn't helping, knowing he was trying so hard. I couldn't give him what he wanted, time.

"You are working for me now, you get that, Joseph? if I see one f*****g wrong move from you or any other employee you have, I'm going to tell Ma, and you know she wouldn't be the only one looking for you." I shivered to hear Jonah speaking in his dark voice when he hadn't let his eyes off mine. Not even looking at Joseph didn't answer him, as he had forgotten for a few minutes what a shitty place he was in, working with Austin, and he knew shit since his days with Jonah; even I knew that didn't sit well with people running a business of any kind.

"Did you fucking hear me or what?!" Jonah had turned his head, seeing Joseph still having Tom behind him, looking relieved and annoyed at the same time hearing Jonah's decision, not that he would do shit about it. Never did that, big bastard. "I fucking got it! Now, give this to Andrea!" He was still holding out the bag when Jonah snatched it from his hands, scowling, pushing him away like he didn't want to have Joseph even close to me. It was ridiculous! "Great...." Jonah was handing over the bag when he opened it looking like he had the world on his shoulders; seeing the pregnancy test in it when my heart dropped too. Great.

I felt all three of them watching me when I walked over to the bathroom and closed the door behind me, not caring that Jonah wanted to follow. He had pissed me off so f*****g much, acting like everything that happened was my fault, and it wasn't!

Was it my fault he couldn't get Shailene knocked up!? Would he even have left her for me if that had happened? That was hurting me even more than seeing his face when Joseph had dropped the bomb on us, he was scared, and it was sucking out any joy from my body over something that should be a happy moment.

I was leaning over the counter, my stomach sore, throwing up after peeing, when the timer on my phone made me switch my eyes to the small plastic stick. Great.

Jonah stopped speaking when I walked out the door, holding the stick and pushing it against his firm chest, not even being able to smile about anything; this was not like when I told Buck. It felt awful, I would cry any minute, and he knew that too. "I'm pregnant."