Let Me Love You Again
Chapter 18

Maya

I put Axel to bed and turned off the light in his room before heading to the kitchen. It was only eight o’clock in the evening but it seemed late at night for me. My body was all sore, the bath with salts that I had done had not helped at all, certainly, my muscles had softened but they still hurt.

Plus the memories of that wild night kept coming through my mind and in my ears was still ringing the sound of Nate’s hoarse voice screaming as he came into my mouth.

The more I tried to get rid of those memories, the more they crept in and filled my mind, making my headache in an incredible way.

Luckily, I got away from him before he could stop me and try to talk about what happened between us that night. I knew he wanted to talk about it, I could feel it in his eyes, and I knew that story wouldn’t end there.

Sooner or later, Nate and I would have been alone in the same room, and then there would have been no escape.

I wasn’t ready to have a confrontation like that, I wasn’t ready to talk about what had happened, even if my mind wouldn’t stop talking about those few moments I could remember in the mists of alcohol.

And my body didn’t help. When I undressed to take a bath, my body still smelled like him, mixed with the smell of s*x, and I could swear I felt my abdomen twitching at that smell.

Even though my p***y muscles hurt, I felt that she was calling for that contact with Nate. Like I’m some kind of horny animal claiming his mate.

I had to stop thinking about all this.

I took a glass and some juice and sat on one of the stools, despite the internal muscles of my thighs protesting in all the languages of the world.

I took a long sip as I scrolled through the messages. Jess had stood me up for that night, she was too busy with her husband, lucky for me. I couldn’t stand the look on her face the same that reminded me of Nate. It wasn’t what I needed to forget.

Unfortunately for me, Lucas had nothing to do and he wrote me that he would come to me.

Good.

I couldn’t handle it if he started asking some weird questions, I’m not sure I could have not lied.

And right on time, the buzzer rang and I got up immediately, opening the door to Devon and Lucas holding a box of pizza and a box of beer.

I would never touch a drop of alcohol again in my life.

“Hey s*x Bomb,” Lucas chirped on the way in.

“Hey Luc, I can see you’re in a great mood,” I said closing the door behind them.

“Oh yes, last night was a fantastic evening, the night even better and this morning I ate like a king” he said dancing towards the table.

“Don’t listen to him, he’s just glad he’s not spending a night with Jess’ hysteria,” Devon said as he sat next to her boyfriend.

“Lucas, you are evil,” I said, following them and sitting on the stool, not without making a grimace of pain when it radiated throughout the body.

Lucas looked at me carefully, as I opened the pizza box and took a slice of it, pretending nothing had happened while I was listening to the inquisitive gaze of Lucas and Devon. The two boys opened a beer for one and took a slice of pizza.

“What did you do last night when we went to the room?” Lucas asked before drinking a sip of beer.

“I went to sleep like everyone else,” I said quietly.

“In your room?” he looked again.

“Sure,” I said, chewing.

“You know this is really weird,” Devon said, looking at Lucas, “Because this morning we picked up your room key and we went in, and we wanted to prank you, and guess what? You weren’t there. Your bed was intact as if you hadn’t slept in it at all. So I wonder, Maya, why are you lying to us?” Devon looked me right in the eye and twisted his fingers on the table, patient like Jess when she wants to know something.

I turned my eyes to Lucas looking at me and winked.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about, maybe you’ve got the wrong room,” I said, trying to look as quiet as possible.

“Oh really? You’re telling me there was another Maya Sheppar in the hotel who had her room right on your floor?” Lucas asked.

I shrugged my shoulders and looked the other way.

“Then you have no explanation for that giant hickey sticking out of your shirt,” said Devon very seriously.

I froze and looked at the neckline of the T-shirt where I could actually see a part of the hickey I had on my clavicle. I didn’t say a word.

“So? Are you ready to talk or do we have to use the torture methods signed by Jess Sarah Dare?” asked Lucas, by putting his beer on the table.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I said more strongly this time.

“Really? So you’re telling me that this morning, the one who couldn’t even stand on her legs like she was banged all night, wasn’t you? Maya Jo Sheppar?” Devon asked looking into my eyes.

“I could stand on my legs” was all he could say.

“AH!” shouted Lucas as if he had caught me in the trap “Admit it May! Who did you f**k?!”.

“No one!” defended me by standing up.

“Oh please! I recognize the signs of a night of fire and you were the living proof of it May! You couldn’t even sit down and your face was upset! You smelled like s*x! We could see it in your face!” cried Lucas.

“That’s not true!” I continued.

“You know who else was a rag?” Devon suddenly asked “Nate. He sat down next to me and smelled of s*x and even perfume I feel in this house” he continued without any problem.

I opened my mouth wide open and I didn’t make a sound as Lucas suddenly turned to his boyfriend and opened his eyes wide before pointing them at me again. I denied with my head, trying to save what little I could save, but by now my defeat had arrived. I could not do anything anymore.

“You b***h!” Lucas said, “You f****d Nate!” he raised his arms to the sky in shock.

“I didn’t f**k Nate!” I tried to defend myself by taking a nasty look at myself from Devon “I’m more than convinced that it was the other way around” added defeat.

“Oh my God! What a slut! You banged Nate and you didn’t say anything!” Lucas looked at me shocked “Judging by the signs and your inability to sit properly without overflowing your eyes with pain, it must have been a wonderful f**k!” He continued cheerfully and high-fiving.

“There’s nothing to say!” I said, sitting on the stool and squeezing my eyes out of pain while Lucas winked, “I don’t remember much and it wasn’t just one f**k,” I said, putting my hands on my face.

“What?!” shouted Lucas and Devon in unison.

“When I woke up this morning, I found myself in his bed naked. In a panic we looked for the condom and found four, all used” I said full of shame.

“Four?!” they said again in chorus.

“Sheppar you’re a beast!” added Lucas satisfied “Tell me it was the best night of your life, please!”.

“I don’t know! I was so drunk that I don’t remember anything! And the same goes for him! I just have vague memories, some images of what happened!” I said, putting my hands in my hair.

“You didn’t drink that much May, by your standards you practically drank nothing,” Lucas said.

“You forget it was more than a year that I did not touch a drop of alcohol. We woke up and God Lucas, the room was a disaster. The bed completely turned upside down, the table bare and all broken, my dress rolled into a corner his torn shirt. It seemed like there were beasts in that room. And his back, my God. Nate had a back full of scratches and b***d, as well as a l*p. I may not have done this, but the more time passes, the more memories appear in my mind” I shake my head.

“What kind of memories?” curious Lucas asked.

“Of me bent over the table with Nate’s face tucked between my legs, of me on my knees while I’m sucking him, of the bed slamming against the wall. One by one I see them again in my mind and the worst thing of all is that my whole body yearns for that feeling again,” I said, ashamed.

“Do it!” said Devon and Lucas again.

“I can’t! Jess would kill me, I risked a lot this morning. Do you know who was in the room next to Jess’s?” I asked and they shook their heads “Me! Jess listened all night that I was banging her brother! God I would sink from shame!”.

“Oh please, May! Stop worrying about other people and think about yourself. Don’t you feel the uncontrolled desire of your body to throw yourself headlong into a p***s and get f****d? Well, more than you’ve obviously already done,” I shook my head, “Stop messing with yourself and thinking less about what other people want and more about what you want. You’re a sexy bomb, everybody wants to f**k you, and it just so happens one of the coolest guys wants to f**k you, and he f****d you good, as far as I can tell. Stop messing with yourself and take that chance. You’re a mom, you committed, your life is a mess but you have needs and these needs are called Nate Dare and his miraculous d**k that made you a diva” said Lucas.

“Look, even if you were a rag, this morning you were radiant, bright as few times I managed to see you. Your body needed that, and from what you said, based on the results, you had too much tension. If Nate Dare could help you dissolve some of that tension, why not? Jess doesn’t have to know. Not if it’s nothing but s*x. Why to waste such an opportunity?” said Devon.

“Do you think?” both nodded “God I don’t know what to do but from what I can remember, I’m pretty sure it was the most beautiful s*x I’ve ever had in my entire life and, despite my whole body being sore and sore, I f*****g want to do it again, as if my batteries had been recharged”

“And do it!” they said together.

“I can’t do something like that behind Jess’s back, you know, she’d know right away, and I’m not good at lying,” I said shaking my head.

“Oh stop it. Promise me you’ll think about it,” said Lucas.

“I don’t promise anything but please stop talking about the subject,” I said grabbing another piece of pizza and continuing to eat.

Topic Closed.