not his first mate now
chapter 40

"I still see his red eyes” my mouth dropped open slightly as I take inwhat he said.

"It's okay Xaiden my sweetheart, nightmares can do that, sometimesthey feel real but there not, even mummy gets them.” I was bothworried and furious at the same time.

"So you get them too." He was shocked but I smiled and gave him anod.

"Wow but your so brave mummy, nothing can scare you." he seemedconfused on the fact that adults to can have nightmares.

"That's only because I have you to keep me strong.” A big smile is nowspread across his face at the thought of being my little protector.before I know it he's ran off somewhere.

I frown to myself and quickly grab my phone, I knew this day wouldcome but not this soon.

"Lilly" a voice answers, I sigh and then anawers.

"Sasha, how soon can you whip up the rest for me?" She cackles on thephone.

"By when do you need it done?" I groan at the thought of having to doany of it but answered her anyway.

"In three days tops.” The phone goes quiet and I wait for for her reply."Okay I'll get onto it and Lilliana Ill tell the others.” I knew I would needall of them and in a way I felt really bad for it, but this wasn't just myfight and they all knew it. We would all have to come together onceagain.

"Thanks Sasha.” With that I hang up. Over the years I some how endedup helping a few people in trouble, which made enemies of all kinds.Somehow there became a group of us sort of like a gang of helpers Iguess. But for all of us there was only one big threat and that's therogue king himself. Everyone thought he was a wolf but I knew better,he was a hybrid, a lycan father mated to a witch X demon mother. Andhe is a cruel king, the stories I was told made me sick.

"Lilly you okay?" I look up and notice Xander staring at me withconcern.

"Just thinking.” I mumble and look back down to the bench.

"Are you sure? I just had Xaiden tell me a story about red eyes and himhaving to watch you get beaten to death.” Before I know it he's got hisarms around me hugging me tight.

"It was just a nightmare he had, you don't need to stress." I explain tohim.

"Yes but he says you get them too." I feel a kiss on my head and sigh asI bury my head into his chest.

"My past is not all rainbows and fairy's, you should know that alreadyby now.” I admit softly, he runs his hand down my back slowly.

"I know that.” Came his simple reply that just seemed to iterate memore.

"You know nothing Xander, you will never understand what I wentthrough, what I had to do to servive." I growl out at him and pull awayso we can have some distance between us. He new nothing of what Iwent through over the last five years, no one did.

"Then tell me so I can help you.” He was calm when he spoke. Was evenready to talk about this.

"All you need to know is that you need to protect Xaiden no materwhat happens.” With those words I walk away and head out side to theflower garden. Sitting down on the grass, I cross my legs, close my eyesand then hold my palms together. Lifting my head up towards the sky, Itake deep breaths in and then deep breaths out. Feeling around me forany energy in the air. Meditation was one thing Sasha taught me so Icould feel the energy and movements around that where different.After a few hours i finally found what I was looking for, my eyes flyopen and with a cruel smirk on my face.

"I got you now aashole." I growl not caring if he herd or not.