The Alpha & Beta's Regret
The Alpha & Beta’s Regret – Chapter 31

Luci POV

She did not know what was going on between her mother and Orien, but he looked absolutely furiously mad, and when she saw her own mother slap him, saw him stumble back. She knew it wasn’t just her mother but her wolf, Fallon, also behind that hit as well. She knew instantly something was wrong between them, and then when his own wolf surfaced and snarled at her. She knew that whatever it was, was not only wrong, but very bad.

Alari was on the move before she knew it, shot forward so fast it startled not just Luci but Kali as well. Put herself right in front of Orien and his wolf Rali, and a massive Siren hiss rolled out of her along with her aura, as she pushed her mother back out of the way, with one hand on her stomach.

Alari, it seemed, would not be standing for any harm coming to her mother. “Back away.” Rolled out of her as a full warning. He had no idea what he was up against. She herself watched with full and pure satisfaction. As that man stumbled back and started to bow before Alari, who was showing him she was more powerful than he was. It was a sweet feeling too, and for not just her, but also Kali, to have that man bow before them.

Then they got to see their beautiful boys Siren-Wolves just a moment later, so very beautiful. Alari dropped down on her knees so that all three of them could get a better look at them. Saw they had the black eyes of a Siren with brilliant red iris’ of a pure-blooded Alpha Wolf. It was a fierce thing to look at, they were going to scare many when they grew up, looking at their eyes was going to fill any enemy with fear.

Kali purred loudly for them, and Alari joined right in, a loud musical purring emitted from them.

Her boys wound around her smooching their heads along her arms and her back, all the way around to look at her, Astral and Spark so very much alike, then the two of them just pounced on her and she could hear the two boys inside her mind laughing ‘Play with us mamma.’

She could feel Kali’s excitement, heard Alari chuckle at her boy’s antics and simply relinquished control, and Kali ripped right out of her. Bowed to greet her pups, wolf to wolf, all their heads touched in that bond of love. That family showed to each other, her precious boys were big already. ‘They’ll grow yet.’ Alari told her ‘Still young.’

‘Run.’ Kali encouraged them and then they were off to chase them, uncaring of where they were, or who could see them. Uncaring that Orien was back there, didn’t even care that their Alpha and Beta were watching on. This was their moment to play with their pups, on their first shift all together.

They were encouraging them to play and chase each other. As she chased, she knocked them over, bumped into them and let them pounce on her and knock her down, and rolled around with them.

Fallon, her mother’s wolf, was suddenly in amongst all the playing and the boys didn’t hesitate to play with her, knew who she was, wasn’t fazed by the size of her either. Were happy and excited to play with their grammy, wanted to spend time with her as she did with them.

‘Mamma, can we run in the woods now?’ they both asked excitedly.

‘Yes.’ She told them ‘Go boys, as fast as you can.’ She smiled when both Astral and Spark raced off towards the woods.

Kali raced after them, stayed just behind them so they could lead the way, to run as fast as they could, did not know if she could outrun them or not, had no trouble keeping up with them, neither did Fallon, who was running next to Kali.

She let the two of them just run freely wherever they wanted to, for as long as they wanted. All over the pack’s forest. The first run in wolf form was always exciting and joyous. She and Kali had also had their first run here in this very forest.

Let them run until they just slowed down and started to smell the woods around them, everything from the trees and ferns to flowers and the grass, even the dirt on the paths they came across. She saw them look at Fallon many times. They seemed to want to connect with her but couldn’t. She wasn’t a member of the pack.

Heard Fallon howl and watched on as both Astral and Sparks’ attention turned right to her, stopped smelling and investigating their surroundings. Kali howled herself, and she felt Alari push a little at her, part of her Siren’s nature, and the howl became harmonic in nature. Only now did Luci realise it had always sounded that way, a part of Alari had always been with them, even if she had not been able to come forward before. Alari had been able to add to their howl without their knowledge.

Heard both her boys howl along with her, so very rich and musical in nature, their Siren-Wolves howl in full force for all to hear, was literally music to their ears, filled all three of them with joy and happiness. Pride.

Two more howls rang out and she knew it was Astral and Flare, their wolves wanting to join in the moment their pups were having, pure biological instinct on their part. She could see both Solar and Flare not that far away. No other wolves inside the pack howled in response to their Alpha and Beta, normally would have she thought. Wondered why not? Saw both Astral and Spark look over to Solar and Flare. This would be the first time they got to see their fathers as well.

Though they did not go over and join them, or smell them, did not try to connect with them, Luci was certain that they would want to, it would be a natural thing for them to do, but still, they didn’t.

Watched as Solar took a step towards the twin’s wolves, Flare moved right in front of him, blocked him from doing so, stopped his own Alpha from approaching his pup. She was curious as to why, knew that no Alpha should take orders from his Beta. Though they were more like two Alpha’s, had always run this pack together as one.

Did everything together, but it seemed to her that right this minute, they were not on the same page. It was odd to her, she’d never seen them be at odds about anything at all, were always aligned with each other. Practically thought the same thing most of the time, knew Rafe could read Jack with a mere glance at him.

It was clear to her that they wanted to be around their pups, and she was not going to stop them, but her boys also seemed to not want that right this minute. It was curious to her and Kali, but not to Alari, who didn’t seem to care either way. She was closed off to them. Had no feelings of her own about the Alpha and Beta who ran the pack they belonged to.

Considered herself the Alpha of the Lake, that was her home, not this pack, she had not been born inside the pack but outside of it, in the lake. Had helped out against Victor, because Luci and Kali wanted to help, because they were the fathers of her children. She was not their Mate, so didn’t particularly care at all.

Her only thought on the matter now, was that as long as the boys were happy, she would let them. If they didn’t want to interact with their fathers, then she would not make them do it. No one could make her, or likely the twins, do anything that they didn’t want to do.

Her Alpha and Beta would simply have to wait on the twins wanting to spend time with them. Getting to know them would be on the boy’s terms. Only when they were ready. Alari, it seemed, would step in and stop anything the twins were not happy with, or thought that they were being made to do and were unhappy about it herself.

She encouraged both the boys to head back to the centre of the pack, where they had come from. Heard Beta Jack’s voice inside her mind ‘I’ll have clothes waiting in the mud room, for all of us Luci.’

‘Alright.’ She answered softly as she saw both Solar and Flare turn and head back, leading the way.

‘Mamma?’ both boys asked as they watched both their fathers’ wolves leave.

‘Heading back, to make sure you have clothes to wear, when you shift back.’ She told them.

Kali nudged them in the direction of Solar and Flare and found Fallon next to her. They walked behind the boy’s wolves, who stopped to smell things along the way. Watched as both of them shot off to chase a rabbit and then dig furiously at the burrow it went into, but got nothing, the rabbits warren likely deep.

It was very cute to watch, both their wolves hunting and digging away together, seemed angry that it had gotten away from them. They both huffed and snorted at the burrow before re-joining them.

Both Alpha Rafe and Beta Jack were standing by the door to the packhouse mud room, wearing only shorts. Luci frowned at the sight of them, they looked smaller to her, felt Kali huff ‘Weaker.’ Luci didn’t understand it. How could they be thinner and have less muscle tone? Wolves usually get stronger, not weaker, when mated to their Goddess Gifted Mates.

Fallon was the first to shift, accepted the dress that was handed to her from Rafe, didn’t seem to care that she was naked in front of either of them. Though she did note that neither of them looked at her.

‘Shift back.’ She told her boys and watched as they shifted right in front of their fathers, accepted the pair of shorts they were offered. Watched as Beta Jack squatted right down to hand the shorts to little Jack. “Your wolf is amazing.” He told him with a smile for his son.

Saw as Little Jack smiled up at his father, happy with the statement.

Jack reached out and tousled his son’s hair, watched on as her son actually reached out and let Jack pick him up and hug him, touched his forehead to the boy’s. They were bonding, it seemed, and willingly on both sides.

Her eyes moved to Alpha Rafe, wondering if he would follow suit. He was more dominant than his Beta, always liked to get his own way, he was looking at his son. Saw him kneel down as well, and little Rafe looked at him for a good 15 seconds, then just smiled back, and she saw relief on her Alpha’s face as he reached out for his son. Picked him up when little Rafe reached out for him, held on to him with his eyes closed and just sighed, sounded happy to them.

Kali stood watching them, and she and Kali felt a well of sadness inside of them, found both boys’ eyes right on her and sighed. It was always likely going to hurt. Looking at them, they had mated themselves to the two of them during her heat, even though they were not their Mates, not that she had ever told them that, would never.

Could not, they had Mate’s and she would never take another, could not. No matter how painful it was. Had to deal with it, for it was her shame, her mistake. One she and Kali had to live with, was their secret to bare. They should never have done it, knew she was not their Mate, but loved them and during her heat, the compulsion had taken her over and she nor Kali had not been able to deny their need to be closer to the ones they wanted.

Kali did not shift her back, just stood there, there would be no shift and being naked in front of either of them ever again. It was her mother who seemed to understand what the issue was.

“Alpha Rafe, Beta Jack, could you go inside please.” She asked them.

They both looked from Kali to her mother and then, after a moment, just turned and stepped inside, after Rafe handed her mother a dress for her to wear.

They watched the two of them step inside and out of sight before shifting back, took the dress from her mother and sighed a little on the heavy side as she pulled it on. She’d not been inside this packhouse since the day she’d seen them with their Mates. The day she’d left.

“It’ll be alright Luci.”

No, it wouldn’t. She thought to herself, she didn’t know how she was going to handle living inside the pack, or where they would expect her to stay even. Only knew that she was not going to be inside this packhouse, where she would have to see them all the time with their Mate’s. That was a definite no, she couldn’t do that.

She would not keep them from their sons, but neither she nor the twins would live inside this packhouse. She doubted very much they’d even told their Mate’s at this point. She also knew it was not going to go down so well with their Mate’s at all.

Luci didn’t even know if her sons had brothers or sisters. It was likely it had been six and a half years since she had left, it was very likely they had several. She sighed softly and turned her eyes on her mother “Why are you and Orien fighting?” wanting to think about something else right this minute.

“That is a long story, but in a nutshell, he wouldn’t let me come here a week ago. When Jack told us they’d seen Kali.

Luci frowned at her, she’d not seen Jack, but let it go. It didn’t mean that he hadn’t seen her. “Why wouldn’t he?” she asked instead.

“He told me it was dangerous, which is ridiculous. Rafe and Jack’s pack is very big, very strong.”

“To dangerous?” she asked, not understanding.

“After the attack.”

“Victor.” Luci nodded that man was vicious, though why that would cause Orien issues? Victor was allied to him, her mother would not be in any danger from Victor. It would sever their alliance.

“You saved them?”

“Alari and Kali saved them.” Luci nodded “Why did Victor attack?”

“I don’t know.” Her mother shook her head. “We haven’t spoken to him in a while. Not since our last mating ball, which was two moons ago.”

Luci frowned. “He came for me in town today. Knew what we were, wore some sort of protection against Alari’s Siren call.”

“Strategic as always.” Addi sighed “We’ll get to the bottom of it, Luci.”

“Oh, I know what he wanted. What Orien told him he could have, me as his Luna, he still thinks I belong to him.”

Saw her mother frowning, “Well Luci, you don’t have to go with him. I doubt very much he could make you do anything at all.”

“He can still tranquilise us and kidnap us.” Luci sighed. That had been his plan and if not for her boys he would have done just that. She, it seemed, was still susceptible to wolfsbane, or at least that’s what she thought, is what he used. She didn’t know. If he knew about Alari, which he did, he could well know about something that could bring down a Siren as well. “Alari will kill him if she gets the chance. He hurt our son Jack.”

“What?” she saw her mother’s eyes go wide now.

“Struck him. Rendered him unconscious.”

“I’ll sever our ties with him for this Luci.” She heard her mother grate out.

Luci stood wondering how Orien would feel about that. Victor was one of his loyal allied Alpha’s. He was strong and ruthless and had been around as long as Luci could recall. He was at least twice her age, but she didn’t exactly know how old he was, didn’t particularly care either.

“Come inside, you must be hungry, it’s been a long day.”

She looked at the packhouse, a place she’d once called home, felt like she’d belonged in. Didn’t call it home anymore and didn’t feel like she belonged here anymore. It just caused her pain if she was honest. “I can’t live here mum.” She murmured softly and she knew she couldn’t.

“We’ll sort something out, sweetie. It might take a day or two, but I will, I promise you.”

Luci nodded, she had no choice but to go inside right this minute, her boys were in there. Would really prefer not to at all, took a long breath in and followed her mother inside.