Alpha Nicholas
Chapter 57 –

Alpha Nicholas

If there's one thing that I've come to realize in the short time that I've known my mate it's that she needs both words and actions to believe in anything and given her history it doesn't surprise me. She still doubts me and that's understandable after how we started, and she may not realise it yet but I'm all in and I'm more than happy to show her every single day of our lives if that's what it takes starting from right now.

I lean in and kiss her until we are both breathless and I have no choice but to pull away. I watch as her chest rises and falls from her harsh breathing and have to tear my eyes away from her lush breasts before I lose control again. Believe me when I say that it is all I want to do right now. After tasting her last night I already know that I'm going to lose control often and I'm not sorry one single bit.

I hook one single finger under her chin and lift her head until she has no choice but to look at me. I want her to see my face when I talk to her. I want her to see that I mean everything that I say.

"So here's what's going to happen. I'm going to tell you exactly what I think and feel about those thoughts that you are having, then I'm going to take you up against this shower wall right before I take you into our bedroom, spread you out on the bed and lick, suck and nibble on every inch of your skin before I fuck you hard until you're begging me to stop making you come!"

Jesus fuck, I didn't mean to say all of that and it hasn't helped me when it comes to keeping my control but seeing the look on my mate's face, seeing the lust that's in her eyes, I don't regret a dam word. Even as her cheeks go pink from what I imagine is a bit of embarrassment and even if she doesn't say a word back to me, I know my words have affected her and it pleases me to no end.

"You think that I regret last night but you couldn't be further from the truth. It was without a doubt the best night of my entire life. You think that I regret my decision to have sex with you? Well, first of all, it wasn't sex, what we did last night was so much more than sex. What we did last night is called making love.

And to top it all off, You think that I'm still going to reject you and send you on your way. I can see why you would think that, I understand your reasons but baby, please listen to me when I say that you couldn't be further from the truth. If I had my way you would already be marked and officially my Luna, and you would already be living here with me. Now, does that sound like something that I would say If I were going to reject you, does that sound like I want to?"

I give her a moment to think about my words and have to hold back a smile at the cute look on her face as she concentrates. "But you didn't mark me. You had the chance last night but you didn't?" Her words come out in a feisty attitude and it makes my cock hard as a rock. "I didn't no, but it's not because I didn't want to." She gives me a skeptical look but I can still see a hint of sadness in her eyes and I'd bet my last dollar that she's feeling insecure right now.

She suddenly lowers her head so that her eyes are locked on my chest, I don't like it but I keep talking. "It's the truth. If I hadn't been such an idiot then I would have marked you the first night that I saw you, but I was one and now I have to pay the price for it." "What do you mean?"

"The first night I saw you I fought every emotion, every instinct and I was a fucking fool for doing it. The moment I laid eyes on you I should have picked you up, thrown you over my shoulder and brought you up to our room to mate and mark you. You should already be wearing my mark and officially be known as the Luna of this pack but I didn't do any of that. Instead, I walked away like a fucking idiot and worst of all I hurt you when I had no right to. Every day I wish I could go back to that day and change how I reacted but I can't, and so now I have to pay for my behaviour and that means waiting until you are ready to accept me as your mate and my Luna, until you are ready to wear my mark."

She looks up at me as I take a deep breath getting some air into my lungs after my word vomit, then lean in and place a gentle kiss on her lips only within seconds I feel the air quickly leave my lungs again as she places her hands on my bare stomach and slowly glides them up until they rest on my shoulders. "I told you before that I don't want you to worry about the past, about our past. The way I see it, you can sulk about the past and fret over what has or hasn't been done, or beat yourself up about stuff that you can't change or you can take that energy and put it into shaping a better future."

Once again my mate's words remind me of how her heart is too big for this world, and how it's too big for me. I don't deserve her heart or any part of her really, but somehow the moon goddess sent her my way and I'm keeping her no matter what. I lean in and place another kiss on her lips and can't help but smile when she leans up on her tiptoes and kisses me. She's so incredibly short and I replace it cute as fuck.

I lean down and kiss her before I take a step closer to her causing her to take a step backwards and come in contact with the tiled wall. It's time to make good on my words. "Oh and about marking m-" Of course, before she can even finish her sentence our moment is interrupted by one of my warriors as his voice fills my head through the link.

"Alpha. We've found a girl on our lands. She claims not to be a Rogue and doesn't smell like one either but, she's refusing to tell us her name. Said she'll only speak to you. We weren't sure if we should take her to the cells or not because of our guests." Nathen is a fairly new warrior but already he's proving to be a good one, but right now, I just want to knock him the fuck out for ruining the moment.

"Take her to the cells. I'll be there soon." "Yes, Alpha."

"Oh and Nathan, good job checking first." "Thank you, Alpha."

I close the link and look down at my Mate while I hold back Storm's growl of disappointment at being interrupted. Yeah you and me both buddy! "I'm sorry, baby but we're going to have to come back to this conversation and what I want to do to you. Unfortunately, Alpha duties call but we will be coming back to this...-all of it."

There are very few moments where I feel annoyed at being needed by someone, as Alpha I expect it, but right now, I feel irritated that we have been interrupted already but it's all part of the role... I guess. I look down at my mate expecting to see disappointment, maybe even anger on her face but of course, Bonnie being Bonnie doesn't show any of those feelings instead, she gives me her beautiful warm smile and once again I have to kiss her.

Just a few seconds later I managed to tear myself away from her lips, not that I wanted to but if I hadn't done it at that moment then we wouldn't have been leaving the room anytime soon and unfortantly, I had to. Once I managed to stop kissing her, I started washing her while ignoring her attempts at insisting that she could do it. I know that she is capable but she will soon learn then whenever I'm in the shower with her she will never wash herself.

It's my job to do it now and more than that, I want to do it. That also includes drying her and dressing her, again her protests echo around the room but I continue to ignore them. If I sensed that she really didn't want me to do it then I wouldn't but even when she protested I got the feeling that she was only doing it because she felt like she should and not because she didn't want it.

"She loves it but our mate is still shy and worries about her body but we will soon show her how much we love every inch of her." Storm's words are the final thing that I need to keep going and so I do and within 20 minutes of Nathen linking me I have gotten us both washed, dried, dressed and over to the cells. I was considering leaving my mate behind but she insisted on coming and if truth be told, I'm not ready to be away from her yet.

The door to the cell bangs as it closes behind us and then the smell hits us both. It doesn't seem to matter how often I come down here the smell never gets any easier to handle. "You ok, sweetheart?" My mate nods but doesn't speak to me and when I look over my shoulder at her I have to hold back a laugh at the look on her face as she covers her mouth with one hand. She's too cute.

"Where is she?" I ask Nathen as he starts walking towards us as we head past the first set of cells. "We place her in the last cell. It seemed the best one. She's very quiet and, Alpha She seems afraid." I nod as we head towards her cell and I can't help but notice how Bonnie has picked up her speed. I can only imagine hearing what Nathen said has got her concerned and it makes my heart pick up speed.

We come to a stop outside of her cell to replace her sitting on the floor tucked away in one of the corners and instantly I notice her body shaking and how incredibly small she looks. "Who are you?" After a few seconds, she looks up and straight at me and my gut twists as I take a deep breath.

"Hello, Alpha Nicholas." Jesus fuck!