Chasing My Rejected Luna
Chapter 199

TEGAN'S P.O.V

1 YEAR LATER

I sat in my big windowsill as the sun rose in the sky, looking down at my journal. A therapeutic method that was introduced to me by Kennedy, my therapist. I wrote to Ezra everyday. What he missed. So really I just wrote about anything that happened. In a sense, it made me feel like he wasn't missing out.

Dear Ezra,

Can you believe it has already been an entire year since you've been gone? Oh, how the times have changed. I promise that you would be proud of the Queen I have become in your absence. Every decision that I have made this far, was made with the question of 'what would Ezra do'? Would he agree with my decision?

I know I've told you once before but I wanted to do a run down of all that has happened since you've been gone.

Uriah stepped down as the Beta, choosing to be the top warrior instead. I insisted that it wasn't necessary, but I suppose that after some time, the guilt was too much for him to handle.

Tanner has since then stepped in to help me. He has what it takes to be a Beta, but not to run a Kingdom. I still consult with Uriah from time to time though.

Also, can you believe that Elias is officially potty trained!? I wasn't sure I would ever get him to get it down. But lucky for me, he got tired of shitting his pants.

I swear he has a heart bigger than anyone I've ever met.

Even as a three year old, he amazes me everyday. How could a toddler be wiser than me, and I am an adult?

Sometimes it felt like he was the adult here though. Funny thing really. But I promise, I will guide him everyday. He will become an even better ruler than I ever wished to be. On the other hand, Irelyn. Man is she spunky. She has the attitude of a teenager, yet she was only one and a half years old. I have a feeling I am going to have my hands full with that one. Id be lying if I said that I was prepared for her adolescent years.

Send me some good luck from above because I'll need it.

She has your eyes and you smile. Did you know that?

Everytime I look into her eyes, I see you. I show her pictures of you everyday. Well to both of them. We miss you more than ever. I wished I could kiss your lips, just one more time. Feel the warmth of being in your arms again. There is so much I wished I could take back and redo. But I can't.

Okay, I'm getting off topic here so enough with the sappy sadness. Let's talk about some positive things.

Josiah took Sibil and never returned. It's a good thing really.

He made me feel as if I was cheating, even though I wasn't.

I knew I loved you with my entire heart. Hell, I still do. So if you were wondering, I hadn't moved on. As much as Gemma wished we could get laid, I just couldn't do it. Down there, it was closed for business. Maybe one day I will meet someone that makes me feel alive again. I highly doubt that of course, but if I ever did, wish us both luck.

Do you ever think about what our lives would've been like had you never passed away? I do. All the time.

Anytime one of the kids hits a milestone and you're not there to see it, I think about what it might be like to live in the moment with you rather than having to write to tell you about it.

You never came to see me. I used to ask myself why. I've waited an entire year. But I guess that just means that you'll never come. I assume what they say is true. You really do lose who you are when your wolf is taken. I just hope that you're happy.

It must be confusing being thrusted into the afterlife and not knowing who you are or what happened.

I feel like I'm just rambling now. So I will end the letter.

Irelyn is yelling mama in the other room, anyway.

I love you, always.

-Red

"MAMA-MAMA- MAMA-MAMA"

"I'm coming, hold on, princess." I hollered out as my eyes glanced at the time.

Six in the morning. Man she was an early bird

"Good morning baby girl, wanna go wake up bub?" I asked while changing her diaper.

"E!"

"He is still sleeping. Do we want to deliver breakfast in bed to E, or do we just want to skip that and barge into his room and pounce on him?" "POWS! POWS!"

Of course my little feisty nugget wanted to pounce on him.

I opened his door, allowing the light to shimmer in. Irelyn took off in a wobbly run toward his bed before leaping her tiny legs forward to pounce.

"POWS! POWS!" She hollered but as her belly hit the bed a confused look came across her face.

"E!?" She screamed his name in the manner of a question.

My heart picked up a pace, like it always did when I thought something could be wrong. I remember once Elias screamed at the top of his lungs while playing outdoors, scaring not only me but several others, only to replace out it was because he stepped in poop. "Elias, baby, where are you?" I asked as I walked closer to the bed.

My heart sank at the sight of his empty bed. But before I had much more time to think about it, something, or should I say someone, jumped on my back from the shadows.

"RIDE THE WOLF!" He hollered, my heart rate significantly slowing down.

"You scared the crap out of me!" I said while removing him off my back and tickling his tummy.

"ME-ME!" Irelyn screamed, wanting a turn of being tickled.

"Mommy poopied in her pants." Elias chanted in a singsong voice.

"I did not."

"Mommy poopied in her undies!"

"Well, if mommy poopied her undies then Elias is going to peepee his panties. Here comes the tickle monster!" I shouted playfully, as my fingers tickled him.

"STAHP MOMMA, STAHP. I GONNA WEE-WEE!"

When I withdrew my hands he put his hands on his hips before addressing me. "And I not wear panites. I'm a big boy, I wear tidy-wideys!"

If only he knew that tighty-whities weren't in style like he thought.

"Looks like someone is having a blast." Novalee said from the doorway.

"ZO!" relyn hollered as she wobbled over to play with Zola.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention. Novalee lives here still and Zola was the first of their ancestors to beat the death curse.

How cool was that? She still, however, kept that vial of blood stating 'You can never be too careful! Which, ultimately, was smart.

"You got more hydrangeas in the mail from your secret admirer." She then said, changing the subject.

Oh, another thing. I'd been receiving my favorite flowers in the mail for a little over six months now. No return address.

No name. No way of tracing who sent them.

"Toss them in the trash."

"Come on, they're really beautiful. These ones are plantable."

I greeted my teeth before finally caving.

"Fine, we can plant them." I said before looking over at the kids. "Anyone want to go play in the dirt?"

All the kids screamed yes, so the rest of the morning and into the afternoon we spent planting the flowers. I had been meaning to get the flower garden back to looking gorgeous, so I guess this was a start. Luckily, my favorite flower was an annual, which meant that it would regrow after the harshness of the snow ends.

As I looked at all the bright pinks, blues, and purples planted in the earth, a sense of peace washed over me.

"Alright, E. We have training to get to. Let's take Irelyn to Miss.Rachel." She was a daycare worker.

I know Elias is only three, but we started preparations even younger so that by sixteen he was ready to take over. Plus, his powers have significantly grown. He was definitely more powerful than I could ever dream to be. I just hoped he could keep them under control. Especially when he hits puberty. I heard that the teenage boys felt their hormonal emotions more. So, we decided to start training him early.

That way when the time comes, he is ready. Because I trained him to be.

"Ready to go, little man?"

"Sure thing dude! Got's my spidey shoes on." He said as he stomped his feet, making them flash red and blue.

When did he become such a big boy?