The Alpha's Plus Size Urban Human Mate
The Alpha’s Plus Size Urban Human Mate – Chapter 111

Shaid’s POV:

The master locked me in my chambers, and I don’t understand why I am being punished. My hunger is getting to me, and thoughts of Shadow is invading my thoughts at every turn. Why hasn’t the potion wore off yet? Why am I getting fleshes of his handsome face in the morning sunlight or his expressions when we would make love, but it can’t be me he is making love to. So why does it feel so real? Why does it feel as though it is me in these memories? I can’t think clearly because the hunger is getting stronger by the hour. I feel like I’m losing control of my sanity. I need to get out of here and talk to master so she can remove this potion from my body at least then, my hunger would only be for b***d, and not for the man who isn’t my mate, but has invaded my mind day and night. My body is calling to him wanting to go to him to mate, mark, and feed from him. My body warmed and tingled at the pleasure I knew he could give. Just then another hunger pain hit my body this this much harder than before, I screamed out at the intense pain I was feeling. But still the only thing I could think of through the pain was. “Mate.”

Shadow’s POV:

I stood outside Shawna’s bedroom door nervously. Rane was clawing at my brain wanting me to bust through the door and take her in our arms and never let go. But I know she wouldn’t allow me to touch her. She was pissed at me about wanting to rescue Scarlett, but if she would just let me explain I know she would understand. “You don’t really believe that.” Rane said, to me in my mind. “Yes I do why wouldn’t she understand?” I asked. “Because you don’t understand it yourself. The alpha asked you if you still have feelings for our mate and you and I both know we do. To tell Shawna anything other than the truth will only make things worse and cause us to lose her and our pups.” Rane said and I had to sigh because he was right. I wish I could explain my feelings for Scarlett, but I can’t. It isn’t like it was before, but there is feelings still there and I don’t know what to do about them. I just want to focus on helping her and getting her help.

“Are you going to stand outside my door all day or are you going to come in and say what you have to say so I can take a night before we leave.” I heard Shawna say on the other end of her bedroom door. How the hell does she know I was at her door? It doesn’t matter all that matters is she was open to talking to me and allowing me to explain things the best way I could. When I stepped in the room I stopped dead in my tracks at the sight before me. Shawna must have showered and changed out of yoga pants and tee shirt from earlier. Now she wore a red form fitting night gown that displayed her breast which were now spilling out the top of the gown because they were swollen because of my pups. Her belly was on full display it was round and firmer than before. She was so f*****g beautiful especially with her carrying my pups. “So, you came to my room just to eye f**k me?” She asked, I immediately turned away and pretend I was just shutting the door and not embarrass that she caught me staring at her.

Once I got myself together and adjusted my pants because my hard member made the pants super tight and uncomfortable. When I turned back towards Shawna she was laying on the bed and looking so uncomfortable, unable to get into a comfortable position. She slept on her stomach most nights and on the other nights she would use me as a pillow. I walked over to the other side of the bed and begin to climb in with her. “Um sir, what the hell are you doing? You can sit right in that chair in the corner. You don’t need to be laying with me in order to say what you have to say.” “Shawna stop being so stubborn I know you’re uncomfortable because you can’t sleep on your stomach because of the pups. I remember you saying that sleeping on me was comfortable. So just allow me to help you get some rest you want to be at your best to save your pups. Right?” I asked and smirked because I had an explanation that made a little bit of sense. Shawna frowned at me like she was mad that I came up with an excuse that made her think I had a point. Taking a frustrated breath but turned so I could get in bed, and she made her way over to me and snuggled into me and sighed when her body relaxed in comfort.

Rane purred at the feel of her in our arms it felt right. I could feel the firmness of her belly where our pups grew. “Shadow just touch my stomach if you want to, these are our babies I won’t take anything from this experience away from you because we are no longer together.” She said as she shifted and placed my hand on her stomach. I jumped when I felt something under my hands. “Calm down apparently I’m not the only one who can’t get comfortable.” Shawna said giggling, I looked at her in awe, she was more beautiful than before carrying our pups. Her giggles stopped when she looked up at me. I leaned my forehead against hers, and I closed my eyes to cherish this moment just in case I won’t be able to be this close to her again. “I’m sorry.” I whispered, pulling her close to me. Taking a deep breath.

“Shadow there is nothing to apologize for, you need to do what makes you happy I can’t fault you for that.” She said pulling away from me. Rane whined missing her touch immediately. “Shawna it’s not like that, I only want to rescue her from the witch because she is just a victim in all of this. If you would have known her before all this then you would understand where I’m coming from.” I said pleadingly hoping she would understand. She sat up on the bed her back facing me, so I couldn’t see or read her expression. “Shadow, everyone has a past, and we can’t get around that, but along with that come change as well. You’re trying to save her, but you have convinced yourself that you’re doing it because she has been a victim and used by evil, which could very well be the truth. But what you also fail to see is that you want the old Scarlett back as well and that Scarlett was the love of your life. I am not nor will I ever be, and I get that I’m just trying to get over that hurt so when out babies are born I can do so with a healing heart and not a broken one.” She said getting up, I got up and went to face her. She had tears falling from her eyes which crushed me.

“Shawna baby that isn’t what I’m trying to do.” “Shadow you can lie to me but don’t lie to yourself. Can you say you don’t love her? Can you truly say once you rescue her that the mate bond wont kick in and pull you two back together?” I paused, because the alpha had asked me the same thing and I couldn’t answer him then. “Exactly you can’t answer that simple question, so that in and of itself says it all. You can forgive, and forget, and still love the person who tried to kill me, and your babies, she kidnapped me and wanted to deliver me to her master to do gods knows what. But yet you want me to believe you when you try to tell me who she use to be, and you real life want me to ignore what I have seen with my own eyes. That makes absolutely no sense that I will risk my babies life on a past you want to relive, rather than the present and everything I have witnessed with my own eyes. I can’t put my life or the lives of our babies in the hands of anyone that I can’t one hundred and ten percent trust that he would risk his life to protect us from anyone no matter who it is. So, please go rescue your mate, but just leave me out of it I want no part of that. I will protect me and my babies, you just protect you and your mate, with no worries or guilt we’re good. Please see yourself out I want to get some sleep before we leave later on.” She said walking around me, entering the rest room and locking the door behind her.

Rane whined in my head at her words. How could she believe that I wouldn’t protect her and our pups with my life. My heart felt like someone had stuck there hands in my chest and squeezed my heart until I was unable to draw a single breath. I rushed out of Shawna’s Room and out the door, and shifted into Rane, and ran into the woods trying to escape the words that Shawna said to us. She didn’t trust us anymore.